I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a star wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

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You're probably right. Having expectations is what that kills everything. i had the same thoughts all along, that the more you expect, the harder you'll fall if it is not met. but then again, what is people without expectations? which is why I constantly feel the pain of falling.

Am I giving up? So are you letting go of your expectations?

I won't budge as I don't see how my expectations can be matched. But that doesn't mean I don't care. That doesn't mean those expectations are not inherent.

我怎麼感覺整個黑夜在震動？

The Sandpit.

the little things in life that makes me happy.. like drinking my mum's 爱心汤 - the long awaited vinegar pig trotter. yummy! i guess that compensates for being home on a nice friday night =/

so what did I do on a Friday night at home? haha I finally caught the movie Wind Cloud 2 on my screen. hahaha oh well, the actors are good looking. other than that, I really have to agree there isnt anything much to it. hmmm.

key words are everything, not only in reports, but also in the virtual world. this was being picked up as I was mindlessly scrolling through : .com i think another keyword is being missed out.. karen zhi =)

and some how i was linked to the GIP 7 group site as I was browsing through, and only then did I remember I was the creator for the group. haha that was sooo long ago le.. i still the miss the place. when's my next longgg holiday?!! *pouts*

and this. i like this picture! that was soOo long ago. mmm

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世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹什麽是真实？

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wah come to think of it.. the past few days have been too havoc for me.. been out meeting a different friend every day for four days. and each have such different characters..

A. SNAG

sensitive and good in memory, also a comforting person to be with, but probably one that will hold its partner too tightly and allow few breathing space.

B. Goldfish

supposedly observant, but the forgetful nature equals the grounds to zero. also one who will probably allow its partner too much breathing space that will cause lonesome times.

C. Whale

挺好的…just that i don't speak in whale frequency. haha, maybe its just me, but sometimes its really hard to catch the stuff others say. hmm

D. Blockhead

my first time experiencing a guy taking up the inside seat and the lady the aisle seat in a restaurant. speechless.

haha so you see, its so exciting analyzing the character of different people, how can any day be boring?! (but of coz, if these people sees this, i might be dead. hahahaha) given the above, i remember how my colleague was asking me about my criterias for the dream boyfriend. and i hate answering such questions even though i know how my answer will be.. because so what if that exists? a clear set of guidelines just meant self-questioning, expectations, and probably even disappointment if it fails. at least if its not discussed, not mentioned as often, not placed in the thoughts, maybe it won't matter as much?

yesterday i saw my neighbour, and i'm so happy for her =)

i had a terrible dream yesterday night.

a nightmare that reopened the wound.

and that was the result of watching Dear John.. and sleeping too early.

so many maybes and what ifs that I have been asking myself from time to time..

what if time was reversed and I had chosen another path instead?

what if I had not signed on that document?

what if I had not entered this course?

how will my life be?

and

how will your life be?

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as i was watching a small part of 赌场风云 with my mum yesterday, we came across this scene, and i asked her the following..

如果你的孩子也像戏里面的女生被别人狠狠伤害，而那人又找上门来，你会让那个人见你孩子吗？

today, my mum again asked me why i had asked that question yesterday. i think she is worried. oops. hahaha