the quality of my memory is degrading; i forget the stuff that I think I should remember, and I remember stuff that I don't wish to. My mind has also successfully confused me on several instances. Say for example, I can't even be sure if the following two dreams that I will be relating occured yesterday night or nights before.
In one dream, I own a very precious water bottle. The setting was that I am in a yatch moving forward. As it passed by some dirty water, it somehow slipped out of my hand and into the pile of rubbish. I recall how I made a mental note of the place it fell off, and was lamenting that I should not be bringing such a precious item out on a trip. When the yatch finally stopped, I tried running back to the place where it had dropped, only to realise that I can't remember which was the spot. And I remember how heart wrenching I felt then... This afternoon as I was doing my usual newspaper cutting, I came across this set of Straits Times dedicated to Boating. That was probably when I remembered about this weird dream. I wanna try living on board ships/yatches. There's so much more out there to experience, why is my job stationary?!
The other dream I had was probably a short one. I was in the driver seat of an SBS double/triple decker bus, only that the driver seat was at the top most deck, and I had totally no way of viewing the road right infront of me. I recall driving the bus in my dream and thinking how easy is it for the bus to hit the road curb, cars beside, or any person walking along aside it. I recall also thinking on how I am actually putting my life at risk in taking a bus to work everyday. hahaha what a weird dream right? I guess that dream is a combination of several factors that had been lingering in my mind for so very long. Why had I been such a procrastinator..? sighs.
On and off, I am having dream-ful nights. However, they are slipping of my mind more frequently the moment I wake up. It wasn't the case as always. Just yesterday, I met a friend whom I hadnt met for a long time for dinner, and thanks to him, I have to be reminded how shag I look because I am said to look like I have been OTing alot. Frankly speaking, despite how much I have been lamenting and possibly whining, I don't consider myself currently to be OTing alot. Looking around me, a number of my friends in other jobs (non-auditing) OT in the office till possibly past 10pm. Even in my own office, the order clerks work are constantly having scary amounts of OTs (8:30am - 9+pm), and my other exec friends also OT till 9+pm. As for me, my average is still at one 2hrs serious OT every 1-2 weeks (except these two weeks). So I am considered fortunate? hahaha but the thing is... I don't feel fruitful. I am not utilized as how I thought I should be. sighs. Given this case, can I still lament?
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