Monday, June 30, 2008

the necklace broke......

9:45am, that's when it happened. i was shocked out of bed from my one small move.

why did it happen? in a show which I just watched yesterday, the lady sensed that something bad was about to happen when she pricked her fingers while sewing. it made me think. bad. i dont want to think.

thinking has kept me awake till close to 3am yesterday. i had been stiring in bed for more than 2 hours with too clear a mind. in the end, i had to chant myself to sleep, which luckily, worked.

and even the sleep was disturbed. i had two dreams barely in a night. in one, I had been caught in a car's backseat between two brawling guys. in the other, I was back in Shanghai, twice visited a convenient stall there, and bought a small travelling pouch which I distinctively remember as translucent orange and cost 17RMB.

It had been a terrible 9 hours for me since I popped into bed till the time the thing happened.

why now? why??

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Saturday, June 28, 2008

life

everyone of us are leading our separate lives at this point of time, on this very sat night.

some can be as free as to go on MSN.
some are busy clinching businesses.
some, outside having fun.
some are studying on a lovely sat night.
some are still touring in the other part of the world.
some are still working, at this very time but a different zone.
some, are blogging
some are reading people's blog.
some, like to pretend, and others ....

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why are you doing this to me?

what i need now is a good hug. anyone will do. contact me to go out. i need to go out. i need to escape. anywhere. anytime. anyone............

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Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Thank You for calling me back =)

I'm happy and lited with sparkles ! =)
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Aftermath

its been 24 hours since i've been at Terminal 1 - lost. it was a long and lonely ride back. i will never want to experience it again. never. though i was tired, there was a period which I cant fall aslp in the plane ride. terrible. ended up reading and finishing the book i bought "我到上海第一年". interesting book. you shld read it too =)

in the time i was there, a number of my friends hopped by into China too. there's kok, kale, sammie, teng, siQ, and now i just happened to find out - wei. mostly went by Shanghai, contacted 3 but only managed to meet up with one. everyone's too busy, either in meeting other friends, or we each have our own plans to travel. yup, now that i'm back, who wants to meet me?

time seems to past quickily today, yet, everything seems to be moving so slowly. a day ago, I had caught 3 flights in a matter of 24 hours. and taken a 10hr bus ride the night before the flights. its super tiring.

back to spore, the route is all too familiar, yet it feels so strange. the weather is weird. its sunny, and hot at the same time. I've been sweating the whole day here, even at home just some mins ago. its weird, isnt it? and the sun sets too early for me. back in china (some parts of it that i've been to), the sun rises as early as 5:30am, and sets as late as 8:30pm. its interesting to experience the sudden change from brightness to dark - one moment, the surroundings are bluish lighted, the next moment it turns pitch dark after a small chat and afew chews of food.

shopping is good. for 20SGD that is spent here on a barely passable top, I can buy 1 bag, 1 pair of jeans, and one nice top - on a good day. of coz, do not expect that I had been shopping every free day I have. if money and the return baggage limit is not an issue, I would have done that though. there are also afew shopping places that I wanted to go but didnt get the time to. perhaps its a blessing in disguise for I would not have known how to come back with another bag of items.

let me recount. i've been to..
Beijing — my first and only guided trip. from 6Feb to 10Feb. costed ard 450SGD.
常州/无锡 — my first back-packing trip (and only one that made me really feel like i'm experiencing it). from 12Feb to 15Feb. costed ard 300SGD.
Nanjing - finally get to go to our friend's 2nd home in China. from 4April to 6April. spent ard 450SGD.
杭州 — super relaxing and fun trip, its my favourite of all =) from 1May to 4May. spent ard 400SGD.
苏州 — err, its relaxing, but not my desired cup of tea. from 31May to 1June. spent ard 200SGD.
西安 — sunny place, and a different experience of close to 16 hours of train rides to-fro. from 6June to 10June. spent ard 450SGD.
云南 — relaxing and breath-taking trip, but not towards the end coz of the chiong I had back to Shanghai. from 15June to 22June. spent around 850SGD.

and of coz, 上海 — the total amount i spent on this trip is my whole pay + 850 SGD inclusive of the to-fro tix of SG-SHA but excluding accomodation charges which amounts separately to an estimate of 2000SGD. there is still the 300SGD for payment to China university, and another 300SGD for insurance coverage. cool right. lucky for the coverage from my Bursary though I earn no cent in the end. its the experience that matters. eat, shop, chill, all the fun I had, and the pple I relate to. I will miss the life back there. I will miss the Witchimiya-ing, the 'tours' ard SH itself, chilling and talkcock sessions. and of course our 三号人 with everyone to different degrees, and needless-to-say with Your-Good-Friend to a minimal of zero, or negative if possible.

life's relaxing back there. troubles are minimized, there are other things to keep your mind occupied, and people to keep you entertained. there are high times, and low times. the relaxed, and the rush. its a good way to pass a season of internship attachment, if not for the issues i faced. though its not the way I hoped to end it, but there are some things that can not be helped. a part of me wished to stay there - escape from the worries back home, and the other part wished for a direct opposite.

how will life be if I never went..?

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