Friendship

Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.

And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then.

And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
'Tomorrow' I say! 'I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him.'

But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away.
'Here's a telegram sir,' 'Jim died today.'
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.

Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.

Seize the day. Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family,
for they have helped make you the person that you are today.

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merry xmas everyone!

though simple, but this must have been the best christmas i've ever had. went down to orchard on the eve of christmas, and being a fragile figure as i had always been, i was almost got trampled to death if not for my giant. orchard was simply in a mess. it's really ridiculous that the police had cordoned off parts of the road that prevents pedestrians from crossing even within the same side especially when the 'pedestrian path' had became a blockage by humans itself. every step that i took within that mess (mass) was the cause of the chunk of people pushing from behind. it was just some 5 metres of distance, but it took seemingly forever to reach the end of that mess. and with all that spraying of foams, i really wonder how people of a lower height can survive to reach the other end x.x

*picture of the night*
caught sight of a badly sprayed car in the bus on the way back. guess one of the reason it was disfigured was prolly coz it's a malaysian car XD

i've dilligently stayed at home the whole of today as a post christmas celebration with myself and to be good before my results are out. brrr* so worried *crosses finger* i shall arrange more pics in the coming hours. guys and girls, u can start obtaining pics from me if you see me online le. =/

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24 hours. not too long to miss the warmth of home. but it gets different when it becomes a multiple of 150+ days.. and that beginning is creeping nearer, and nearer... sobs.

just collected my air ticket today. guys and girls, i'll be uncontactable via handphone -local number- as of the afternoon of 6th Jan around 3pm till somewhere in late june.. i'll reach the airport around 10pm on the 6th jan and prolly checking in around 11pm. seems too early, but i'll play by the ear. i can foresee that every second counts at that moment T.T

i was supposed to be at Batam at this time and should be enjoying Cable Ski tomorrow. but 老天不做美… the timing and travelling just didnt allow me to be there. i miss the chance to see the smiles, hear the euphoria, and be first to shake the champion's hand. you know i'm proud of you =)

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我又初恋了 - 五月天

一个人的一生中能初恋多过一次吗？歌名不就是采用了单单一个“又”字来说明其中的矛盾了吗？难道不初的恋可当“初恋”

要看你这么定意你那恋情吧……

如果说初恋是初次对那某一个人谈，那么每一次的恋情都可说是初恋。

又或许，你第一次的恋情失败，想一笔勾销的话，那你下次的恋情也可算是你的初恋。

那么说，人人都可以永远的初恋下去……

这样的说法可真有点荒谬。若初恋还得附上编号，在你认为，哪可还算得上是真真实实的“初恋”？

　－　你　“又初恋”了吗？

每一次从爱里离开
就像是心被切一块，切一块
下次再也不敢放胆爱

谁知道主歌才一半
桥段都还没唱出来
就突然你的出现爆破了悲哀

我吃了铁牛运功散
因为我内伤好犀利

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Because...

why?

When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands before me

When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship

When you thought I wasn't there to catch you
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch

If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?

Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.

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I Believe In You (Je Crois En Tois)

one major project down, and one last one to go.

it was a relief that nights of CAMping at the cad CAM lab (rhymes huh) has came to an end. though it was fun at times, its a headache in most in having to solve all the issues with cosmos, rendering, report, poster etc. I think my team is simply not being efficient in getting things done. hahahah! if not for an external help, i would most likely be stuck and unable to complete my cosmos simulation. so, thank you. >.<

to spell an end to that chapter of project work, i've given myself a small treat to a movie session after the submission of the project. yup, its been close to 3 months since i've been to a cinema, and that last show that i've caught is Ratatouille. But yesterday's movie wasnt quite as entertaining as Rat. then again, all else was better. came back hall in time for an early night's sleep with zero work done once again.

accomplishing zero work is a headache for me while bearing in mind that the next project is due in 7 days, with a target report of 40~60 pages, but only 1 done so far. shit. and to think that i am just given the responsibility not too long ago to complete most of the report. sigh. another weekend into project work. when can i start revision?!!

the only comfort i get from that stress is that i can better share my concern with people around me. and i choose to believe that these people are not the types to eat up the words they so often use.

tous, sais tu t'en iras tous.
sais coeur ouvert à l'univère ou.
suis ta quête sans regarder derrière,
n'attends pas, que le jour se lève.

suis ton étoile va jusqu'où ton rêve t'emporte,
un jour tu le toucheras,
si tu crois si tu crois si tu crois, en toi.

suis ta lumière, n'étint pas la flamme que tu portes,
au fond de toi souviens toi,
que je crois que je crois que je crois, en toi...

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我们的纪念日 - 范玮琪

我的心忽然又活了
总在见到你的那一刻
原来我也有过这样的悸动
只是在习惯自我保护后忘了...

想聊的故事太长了
反而就都沉默的笑着
金色阳光洒在你双手上头
看起来好暖让我想紧紧握着

这是我们的纪念日
纪念我们开始对自己诚实
愿意为深爱的人放弃骄傲
说少了你生活淡的没有味道

这是美丽的纪念日
纪念我们能重新认识一次
有些事要流过泪才看的到
不求完美爱的更远
要过的更好

我用寂寞来惩罚 我
看着你走过
要什么当时不说
此刻能有你倾听我
轻轻的转着
那是种甘甜以后
让人想哭的快乐

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i never knew i could be so blur.

what happened to me?! i thought i've always been very observant. i thought i can read into people and understand people closer to me than some others could.

why am i so BLUR?!

and clumsy . XD

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倒带 - 蔡依林

brr. my head and heels are not in their rightful places.

was shaking as i made my way towards and up to my room some 2 hours ago with a sore throat.

and all that not because of k-boxing, but because of the ride back hall.

brr. made a terribly wrong mistake to hitch a ride back hall. i had totally forgotten how i trembled the last few times i had the same experience. and now worse still, for a longer journey.

i wonder how miao can take it when even ml expresses discomfort in such rides.

i swear..

i will, to my best, never to ride on anyone's bike ever again.

我受够了等待　你所谓的安排
说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及　才知道我可爱
我想依赖而你却都不在

从我脸上的苍白　看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带　只是感觉已经不在
而我对你的期待　被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块　要怎么拼凑跟重来

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yawnz

yawnz i'm tired
in a new-aged court row, does the Defendant and the Plaintiff changes role that easily?

yawnz i'm tired
i have no energy to think

yawnz i'm tired
my eyes can barely keep itself open

yawnz i'm tired
so disappointed by my results

yawnz i'm tired
i've zero strength to mug for next week's quiz

yawnz i'm tired
what a long day ahead

YawnnN!

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爱情转移 - Eason 陈奕迅

i've seen disgusting apple remains lying around on the floor twice in the past 2 days. Is this the season of eat-and-throw-green-apples on the floor? do people take a liking to 剖开-ing the 心 and carelessly throwing it away? this is so inconsiderate of people, especially when one of it is found in the tutorial room! yucks. maybe its by the same heartless person who threw both the 心s away.

~　.　~

as i always feel, disappointment comes only with expectation. 没有期望就不会失望… 偏偏我就是一个常常对他人抱有期望的人… and i'm still left with this strong tinge of disappointment lunging at my heart... i shouldnt have waited to go home with someone who has forgotten that i was waiting. i should have enjoyed my night with 母鸡. sigh. what a terrible disappointment.

~　.　~

把一个人的温暖转移到另一个的胸膛
让上次犯的错反省出梦想
每个人都是这样　享受过提心吊胆
才拒绝做爱情待罪的羔羊

会议是捉不到的月光握紧就变黑暗
等虚假的背影消失于晴朗
阳光在身上流转　等所有业障被原谅
爱情不停站　想开往地老天荒　需要多勇敢

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hahaha! my prof is so funny!

not only is he on facebook, he poked my pets~! i'm quite lucky to know this hip profoessor whom i can connect to. XD

yeah, i know, being what i've done in the past year, i should have know more.

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i've decided to...

i've decided...

i've decided to rest...

to rest for this december holiday...

　to enjoy my holiday...

　to play all i can...

　to meet my dear friends...

before i take on the new sem...

　with a new stride...

　with a new me...

in a new environment...

with a new scope...

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an afternoon to ECP

ahh. had a great afternoon out rollerblading =)

i remember the last time i've rollerbladed was when i was half my size and in yue's yellow 6-wheeled blades someone near her house. Time flies, and now i am doubled my size then, and the wheels have more than halved its number. hahaha!

am burning now at my face due to the heat and humidity this afternoon, but i simply had a great time =) after rollerblading was some 'water sports', of which dinner followed in an hour and a half's time. Had my favourite lamb chop, though that lamb chop tasted more like chicken chop, and an additional order of dumpling+soup to couple with. Weird combination. Initially wanted some 炒蛋蚝， but i was prevented from eating. sigh. but oh well =)

which explains why i'm still rather full at this timing, and unable to eat chen's katong durian puffs! =/ breakfast ba =p

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I'm really happy. Thank you.

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I have met a third person who was willing to spend some time researching for me on ' the symptom '. and I am truly 感动-ed. Although the person will probably not see this.. All the same, 谢谢。 I do not take this for granted ^.^

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aww. i so wanna go to 陈绮贞's 演唱会！

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Mid-Autumn Festival (中秋节) 2007

happy 八月十六！

had a great time chatting away yesterday night with different bunches of people. =) wonder how was their latern festival celeb yestd. if only my group members had told be earlier that my meeting today is postponed then i could possibly join them.. but then again, it was some tradeoff. XD hope they've taken some pics for me to see. =P

Mid-Autumn Festival (中秋节) also known as the Moon Festival, is a popular East Asian celebration of abundance and togetherness, dating back over 3,000 years to China's Zhou Dynasty. In Singapore and Malaysia, it is also sometimes referred to as the Lantern Festival or "Mooncake Festival", which is just the same as "Mid-Autumn Festival" but with different names. It is not to be confused with the Latern Festival (元宵节) celebrated on the fifteenth day of the first month in the lunar year in the Chinese calendar, which marks the end of the series of celebrations starting from the Chinese New Year in other continents.

The Mid-Autumn Festival falls on the 15th day of the 8th lunar month of the Chinese calendar (usually around mid- or late-September in the Gregorian calendar), a date that parallels the Autumn Equinox of the solar calendar. This is the ideal time, when the moon is at its fullest and brightest, to celebrate the abundance of the summer's harvest. The traditional food of this festival is the mooncake, of which there are many different varieties.

The Mid-Autumn Festival is one of the two most important holidays in the Chinese calendar (the other being the Chinese Lunar New Year), and is a legal holiday in several countries. Farmers celebrate the end of the summer harvesting season on this date. Traditionally, on this day, Chinese family members and friends will gather to admire the bright mid-autumn harvest moon, and eat moon cakes and pomeloes together. Accompanying the celebration, there are additional cultural or regional customs, such as:
- Eating moon cakes outside under the moon
- Putting pomelo rinds on one's head
- Carrying brightly lit lanterns
- Burning incense in reverence to deities including Chang'e
- Planting Mid-Autumn trees
- Lighting lanterns on towers
- Fire Dragon Dances

The custom of celebrating the moon (Chinese 月亮 yue4 liang4 in Chinese) for both the Han Chinese and minority nationalities, can be traced as far back as the ancient Xia Dynasty and Shang Dynasty of China (20th century BC-1060s BC). In the Zhou Dynasty (1066 BCE-221 BCE), the people celebrated the Mid-Autumn Festival to worship the moon.

The practice became very prevalent in the Tang Dynasty (618-907 CE) that people enjoyed and worshipped the full moon. In the Southern Song Dynasty (1127-1279), however, people started making round moon cakes (Chinese:月饼 yue4bing3), as gifts to their relatives in expression of their best wishes of family reunion. At night, they came out to watch the full moon to celebrate the festival. Since the Ming (1368-1644), and Qing Dynasties (1644-1911), the custom of Mid-Autumn Festival celebration has become unprecedentedly popular.

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Beyond the 3 States of Matter

Beyond the three states of matter (solid, liquid and gas) exists 2 more states - Plasma and the Bose-Einstein condensate.

In physics, plasma is an electrically conducting medium in which there are roughly equal numbers of positively and negatively charged particles, produced when the atoms in a gas become ionized. It is sometimes referred to as the fourth state of matter, distinct from the solid, liquid, and gaseous states. The uniqueness of the plasma state is due to the importance of electric and magnetic forces that act on a plasma in addition to such forces as gravity that affect all forms of matter. Since these electromagnetic forces can act at large distances, a plasma will act collectively much like a fluid even when the particles seldom collide with one another. Nearly all the visible matter in the universe exists in the plasma state, occurring predominantly in this form in the Sun and stars and in interplanetary and interstellar space. Auroras, lightning, and welding arcs are also plasmas; plasmas exist in neon and fluorescent tubes, in the crystal structure of metallic solids, and in many other phenomena and objects. The Earth itself is immersed in a tenuous plasma called the solar wind and is surrounded by a dense plasma called the ionosphere. A plasma may be reduced in the laboratory by heating a gas to an extremely high temperature, which causes such vigorous collisions between its atoms and molecules that electrons are ripped free, yielding the requisite electrons and ions. Artificially created plasmas have many practical uses. For example, electricity turns the gas in the tube of a neon sign into a plasma that gives off light. Electric rockets may someday use plasma fuels for long trips through space.

The Bose-Einstein condensate represents a fifth phase of matter beyond solids. It is a phase of matter, in the sense that solid, liquid, gas and plasma are phases of matter. Bose-Einstein condensates form from matter that has been cooled to near absolute zero. They were predicted in the 1920s by Satyendra Nath Bose and Albert Einstein based on Bose's work on rules for deciding when two photons should be counted up as either identical or different. Einstein formalized and generalized these ideas, and the result of their efforts is the so called Bose-Einstein statistics. This is the description of the statistics of identical particles that can share a quantum energy level with each other (as opposed to Fermi-Dirac statistics, which describe identical particles of which you can only put one in each energy level). One of the results that one can derive from this statistics is the existence of stimulated emission of photons, which is the effect that is used in creating lasers. Einstein also applied the statistics to atoms instead of photons, and discovered that at a certain very low temperature, all of the atoms tend to drop into the lowest accessible energy level. The effect can be understood in broad outline by considering the Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle which states, roughly, that it is impossible to know both a particle's velocity and a particle's position simultaneously with certainty. When a group of atoms is cooled to a low enough temperature, however, their velocities become very certain; they must be moving very slowly, or, stated more technically, they must have low quantum energy levels. This causes their positions to "smear out", effectively causing the individual atoms to overlap each other. In a Bose-Einstein condensate, the many overlapping atoms can be considered to be a single super-atom, with all of its constituent atoms sharing a single quantum state. The Bose-Einstein condensate therefore is a rare example of the uncertainty principle in action in the macroscopic world. Bose-Einstein condensates are extremely fragile. The slightest interaction with the outside world can be enough to warm them past the condensation threshold, causing them to break back down into individual atoms again; it will likely be some time before any practical applications are developed for them.

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Jack and Jill

English has to be one of the hardest languages to understand. Read the paragraph below and try to understand the meaning.

Two individuals proceeded towards the apex of a natural geologic protuberance,
the purpose of their expedition being the procurement of a sample of
fluid hydride of oxygen in a large vessel, the exact size of which was unspecified.
One member of the team precipitously descended, sustaining severe damage to
the upper cranial portion of his anatomical structure; Subsequently the second
member of the team performed a self rotational translation oriented in the same
direction taken by the first team member.

In plain English what does this translate to?

Jack and Jill went up the hill to fetch a pail of water.
Jack fell down and broke his crown and Jill came tumbling after!

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10 Things You Might’ve Been Better Off Not Knowing About Your Body

10 Things You Might've Been Better Off Not Knowing About Your Body

Andreas Vesalius De humani corporis fabrica libri septem (On the fabric of the human body in seven books), 1543

1. The average human body comprises enough fat to make seven bars of soap, enough iron to make a medium sized nail, enough potassium to explode a toy cannon, enough lime to whitewash a small chicken coop, enough sugar to fill a jam jar, and enough sulfur to rid a dog of fleas.

2. A complete skeleton is worth between $5,000 and $7,500 to a medical student; your skull alone would fetch only about $450.

3. Your mouth produces about one quart of saliva per day

4. Demodex folliculorum has eight stumpy legs and a tail, is about a third of a millimeter long, and loves nothing more than to recline in the warm, oily pits of your hair follicles. Most adults have this mite, usually on the head, but especially in eyelashes. And often, they're in nipples.

5. You have approximately 4,000 wax glands in each ear.

6. The average adult stool weighs about 4 ounces. And half of the bulk of your feces comprises the dead bodies of bacteria that live inside your intestines.

7. The average male foot exudes half a pint of sweat each day.

8. If it weren't for the slimy mucous that clings to and lines the walls of your gut, your stomach would readily digest itself.

9. The average person will pass about 11,000 gallons of urine in a lifetime.

10. A man weighing 200 lbs. would provide enough meat to feed 100 cannibals in one sitting.

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时光机 - 五月天

那陽光碎裂在熟悉場景好安靜， 一個人能被多少的往事真不輕？
誰的笑，誰的溫暖的手心我著迷，傷痕好像都變成了曾經。
全劇終，看見滿場空座椅燈亮起這故事好像真實又像虛幻的情境。
只是那好不容易被說服的自己，藉口又頂不住懊惱的侵襲。

its good to be staying in a same hall with some interesting friends - well, they will have self-access to my level~ and because of that, I've just gotten some surprise moochies right outside my door from my friend. soO nice an encouragement for tml's test =)

i love surprises . it brightens up a person's life =) wouldnt it brighten yours? 麻李麻李Ω！ There you are, some nice flowers for my readers!

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oh my 天 iM so surprised that a friend from design who stays near to my block brought me food! chilled mood cakes and delicious moochi from the recent food fair - which i missed. the moochies are sooo nice with all those ice-cream fillings and chocolate fudge in the core of the filling. oh my that's so nice of ah kien to go around doing the deliveries despite tomorrow's quiz =) yummy!!

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I'm super dooper wooper hungry.

Life - Death - and a brush against it. As simple as a brush frill to swipe away the additional metal fragments from a drilled hole. Yet as terrible with a wrong move.
I laughed, but it haunted me.

I'm super dooper wooper hungry.

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Through my window, I see half a glowing mango moving across the sky.
Sometimes it is so very bright and clear, but other times like now, it is rather misty.
Yet it looks still as luring.

Soon, that mango will retire behind the building in my view.
Soon, it will retire behind the horizon.

When will be my turn?
I'm really tired.
I am not alone.
19 others are busy-ing in preparation for tml's last show.

phew. i'm so tired.
my eyes are drooping, and I'm only halfway through my work.

ARGH

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Goodbye - 卫兰

you would never ask me why
my heart is so disguised
i just can't live a lie anymore.

recently met up with a friend of which we (I) had a good time chatting away. some people are just better to relate to. we have for dinner at this place in PS called Ajitei Jap Cusine. pity him, had to accompany me in a walk all the way from Somerset to finally PS just to find a place to settle for dinner, whatsmore with his hungry stomach. oOops. hahaha! but i felt it was really worth the walk. its really too bad i cant get the pictures taken of the meal due to my pathetic phone that runs out of batt just so often. oh well. initial plan after dinner was to catch a movie, but but, the theatres dont want to make money from us ar.. the shows i wanna watch is at an impossible timing, or either, terrible seats. turned to a walk by the clarke quay river instead. its really a nice and relaxing place to be in.

chatted all our way through the night with the cool breeze blowing. i guess i really shared alot that night, for my mum told me the next day i seemed to have a nightmare. oh well, that happens when alot of things are being poured out.

right. life is like a drama. i shouldnt be the one seated there to see everything happening right? if i have never tried, i will never know right? people about me are moving in a pace too fast. look, iM 21 and yet still the same.

Ever since i was a child,
i'd felt that life is funny
It'll twist and turn, from dusk to dawn
yet stay the same...

i should move out of my comfort zone. give others a chance. give myself a chance. give the past a chance to retire, for good.

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Pizzahut

A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized that the next day, he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for an early morning business flight. Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper, "Please wake me at 5:00 AM." He left it where he knew she would find it. The next morning, the man awoke, only to discover it was 9:00 AM and he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't awakened him when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed. The message on the paper read, "It is 5:00 AM. Wake up."

Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests. God may have created man before woman, but there is always a rough draft before the masterpiece.

i don't like it. but yet, its not to my say.　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　why?

interesting the next day will be 09/08/07. cool.　tonight will be the latest of all the past few recent days that iM going to pop into bed. yet despite turning in early in the previous nights, i had a hard time getting a wink. last night was the best of the past 3 nights. i had only woken up twice in the night. i remember that on sunday night (leading to mon morning), i woke up easily up to 10 times! and that's not exaggerating. it is not because the school reopens that next day, but more so, i think it's due to the stuffiness of the room.

the second night was slightly better in the counts of being awaken. butbut, i had a terrible dream, which made me even more tired on tuesday despite the argument that tired people should rest well on the night to come. nono. i guess i was off the tipping point. i dreamt of myself being 2hrs and 15 mins late for GP exam. yes, that is how exact that i still remember. fancy dreaming of such stuff at the end of the first day of school. and to add on to the joke, i woke up slightly in the midst of the dream and told myself that phew its a dream, AnD i went back to sleep only to continue the dream. argh. i vividly remember myself choosing exactly which top i wanna wear to school (yes, for my in-dream exam), taking a cab, and rushing the cab driver, forgetting the exam time (funny, as i never will) and evaluating on how i wld still be late even if i remember the exam time wrongly. yes, evaluating in my sleep. just imagine how much brain cells i've killed used that night. terrible. it to top it off, it is not making situationgs any better that i had consecutive lessons from 8.30am to 4.30pm that day with only an hr break after my first lecture. i wondered how i survived.

tonight, i must get a really good sleep to compensate for all the previous nights. i should have gone home to embrace my nice bed. but. oh well, meeting ended too late. terrible.

家家有本难念的经。
旁观者总是看得更清楚。

today, i got a treat from a friend - Pinky, whose girlfriend was supposed to join us midway through. however, due to some misunderstandings, she did not. though there was rather a heated arguement over the phone due to some little things that meant quite some to the lady but apparently not to my friend, and the tone that he used wasn't really friendly, she should see how frantically he was doing his best to locate her in the midst of all those people. when a couple, or even friends, are in an argument, one party usually does not see or recognize as much of the effort put in by the other party as by-standers would. sadly, people may simply end up saying things like i hate you and me.

sadly, people easily give up the chance and fate that has been brought to them.
sadly, they choose to let go without giving the other party a chance.
and sadly, they live to regret.

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不如这样 - 陈奕迅

天快亮了，
你的心呢？
她曾经属于我的，嗯…

我该走了，
你的手呢？
有没有一点点舍不得？

每一件不得不放手的玩具，
总算带来过快乐。
每一段不得不完结的关系，
只是一种选择。

如果美好记忆，
还算难忘，
为什么还会记得悲伤？

不如这样，
我们一直拥抱到天亮。
如果关怀是种补偿，
还有什么不能原谅？

倒不如这样，
我们回到拥抱的现场，
证明感情总是善良，
残忍的是人会成长。

is the flower depending on the vase,
or is it brightening up the lonely thing?

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10 June 2007

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ahar! this is cute. i remember seeing something similar to this during last year's Insiny ur camp, which they later wanted to sell the bunch of them, but which i found no purpose in buying. luckily. I vaguely remember it to be cheaper than this set of smiley, and cuter, but what is the use of these palm size thingy to me. body scrub? loL~

some things are simply nice to see but of no use to keep with you

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shopping with my mum is rather fun, and scary.

not because of the amount that we had spent, but how much she (we, actually) value customer service. dont give us a bad experience, else... ..

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marina bay south has a good eating place called Pier Eleven. nice view. especially when there is fireworks (due to national day preview)

the food is really nice. supposedly a 'fusion' of all the different styles of food.. but oh well, i seem to only see western. hahaha! but oh yeah, i love the appetizers, the thing shown in the long dish in the picture.. [ok i know my VGA phone camera sucks.] yummmy. okay iM bad at names, even for food, so i've actually forgotten the name. it taste like liver.. but its not. its damn soft and nice. ohoh and the potato salad is another appetizer.. thumbs up. that chaoda-looking thingy there is acutally lamb meat. but well, doesnt taste as nice as the appetizers. next time go there just for appetizer and desset will do. but overall a nice place with nice ambience. yeP. that's it, nothing more than that to add =)

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i wonder whether i'll still get card(s) and call(s) on my birthday when iM at the age of 50+.

happy birthday to my mummy! heard her happily chatting away on the phone some moments ago. its really sweet that her collegues/friends had bossomed and lasted such a long way, and even though they seldom, almost never, contacted each other for an entire year, they will still remember each other birthdays, and send either cards or give each other calls. when each of us has started work, how many can actually still maintain that? and even much less to speak, to ask you out to celebrate your birthday?

coincidentally, today is also my 阴历生日. happy birthday to myself once again. the same time last week, on the 20072007, i was having a mini celebration in my house. a third of the people i had invited did not / could not turn up. Although i couldnt, i just gotta accept that some people choose not to come with reasons like (a) dont wanna go coz dunno many people there (b) want to be alone coz feeling down (c) just didnt wanna come. yes, one entire group of my friends just did that. of course I couldn'd and wouldn't sound to them my disappointment. what to do, especially when i bumped into them while they were happily shopping outside just some days ago. the words i use may sound depressive, but i've looked past that, so no worries my dear friends. at least i know who are those who treasure me.

not to say any of you are to be blamed if you cant make it. i know some really have 不得已的情况.. though i must say that i really really appreciated those who made an effort to squibble their way to find my house.

yuE. hohoho u're the first to reach.. but damn paiseh that i hadnt had time to accompany you much. i know i know you muz be really bored and prolly feeling rather out of place since most of our usual company cant make it. felt really bad ..

pearL. iM really grateful that you made your way over even though u break camp only earlier that day and even had to (rush over) from your tuition home before coming. you must be really tired! thank you dearie

debz. even though u were overseas, you did a card for yue and I before you left. well it reached me just in the right time! and i really love your card!

kok. hahaha, my dear girl wanted to come at 4+ but ended up to be there only around late 7+pm? but its really sweet for you to come despite the chances of you being stuck there alone =/ well, it must have been boring for you and tan as from what i see /..\ sorryyy

ta grace hil. i really really appreciated you 3 for coming. and esply grace at late 9+pm after her work. 谢谢

zY. my busy photographer (who still has no time to upload pics) ! hahaha! i really appreciate your free service. doesnt sound to nice, but yeah =) your professional help is just what a princess needs =D

oN. this is a difficult person to invite out, and iM really glad that he made a trip down even though he (and yW) had something on later that night. thank you - to both (if you can see/feel this though. haha)

jas. if it gotta leak out, let me be the one saying that im sorry i had forgotten to ask her. am glad that she could make it even though it was a last min extend of invitation . arr oops. ok now, sssh.

xuaN. thank you girL for the lovely clock you got from me from italy. nevermind that it may be a taboo, its too nice for me to say anything against it. i simply love it. thank youu!

yeP, guess what, i received 2 sets of vouchers that night. lol. frankly speaking i really dont know what to spend on. but i must spend it. shit. someone help me. hahaha!

yesyes, i didnt invite alot of people. i hadnt asked any of my uni groups of friends (definitely not because iM not close with them) but because i want (and know i will get, horhor) an even better celeb with them. =D as for the rest of my friends, you may not have been with me for my birthday celeb, but we can still celebrate out! okok. remembered how i told a friend that iM not the type to 特地 call up another person to say that its my bday and i wanna celeb, when he found out that i missed him out during my mini celeb. loL. true, but i will hint. hahahah! no lah, its not really me to 特地 call anyone up, unless... nah.

anyway, now that my exam (singular) is over, i'm effectively left with 1 week to enjoy. 1 week with too much to do. i want to shop. i want to K. I need to move in and clean my hostel. i need to find emcee and settle my cca stuff. i need to read up some things. i need to pack my room and wardobe. i need to.. aww, realise i put my want in front of my need? ahhh! ooops hehehe.

so much to do with only 1 week left. and i have meeting tomorrow! ahh. what a beautiful sat afternoon morning and afternoon to be spent in school. argh. time time. wait for me yeah. i still wanna go out with my friends! shouldnt holiday be for that? to catch up, relax, and enjoy.

yes enjoy, i still wanna enjoy my student life.. i actually do not wish to graduate so soon, though honestly speaking i still cant imagine myself in my supposed field of work. butbut, the graduation ceremony that i attended today had quite gotten me into the mood. though this is the first convo i have ever been to, i do know quite afew seniors who are in this graduating batch. its really sweet how friends are willing to come specially for you to celebrate With you. how many of many friends will do it for me if i were to ask for them to come during my convo? 2 years down the road, do i have someone to celebrate with? flowers? sweet thoughts? only 2 more years down the road.. ...

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小叮噹

The below got me cracking. got it from a friend's blog..

　　　　　　　　　

Fact #1 - Fears & Ears
小叮噹 originally had ears but they were bitten off by a robot mouse back in the 22nd century. As a result, he has morbid fear of mice.

Fact #2 - From Yellow to Blue
It was revealed that 小叮噹’s original paint color was yellow. After getting his ears gnawed off by the robot mouse, he slipped into depression on top of a tower, where he drank a potion with a label having letters that resembled “sadness”. As he cried for a long time, the yellow color washed off and his voice changed due to the potion.

Fact #3 - Vital Stats
小叮噹 weighs 129.3kg and his height is 129.3cm. He was manufactured on September 3, 2112, at the Matsushiba Robot Factory.

Fact #4 - Endings?
There are 3 urban legends to the ending of 小叮噹.

Ending #1
小叮噹 battery power ran out, and 大雄 was given a choice between replacing the battery inside a frozen 小叮噹, which would cause it to reset and lose all memory, or await a competent robotics technician who would be able to resurrect 小叮噹 one day. 大雄 swore that very day to work hard in school, graduate with honours, and become that robotics technician. He successfully resurrected 小叮噹 in the future as a robotics professor, became successful as an AI developer, and lived happily ever after, thus relieving his progeny of the financial burdens that caused 小叮噹 to be sent to his space-time in the first place.

Ending #2
大雄 is suffering from autism and that all the characters (including 小叮噹) are simply fictional characters in his imagination. The idea that 大雄 was a sick and dying little boy who imagined the entire series on his sickbed to help him ease his pain and depression.

Ending #3
大雄 fell and hit his head on a rock. He fell into deep coma, and eventually into a semi-vegetative state. To raise money for an operation to save 大雄, 小叮噹 sold all his tools and devices in his four-dimensional pocket. However, the operation failed. 小叮噹 sold all his tools except for one used for the last resort. He used it to enable 大雄 to go wherever he wanted, whichever time era he wished to go. In the end, the very place 大雄 wanted to go is heaven…

It was reported that the original author Fujiko F. died in 1996 before any decisions were reached, any “endings” of 小叮噹 are fan fiction. However, it is apparent from many episodes and movies that in the end 大雄 does marry 静宜, leads a happy life and separates with 小叮噹, although 大雄 and his friends fondly remember him.

i　b e l i e v e　a n y o n e　c a n　s e e　t h a t　i　a m　r e a l l y y y　b o r e d

a r g h

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Lifestory

"Wake up," she said,
"Look its a beautiful day."
Downstairs to the kitchen door,
and then away..

Into the light,
morning moves the world on.
Morning passes the time,
and morning is gone

Born today some years ago,
and had a happy childhood
Then i fell in love and out,
so nothing's changed

Lived a life that saw me grow
into someone i hope is good,
and yet without a doubt,
i'm still the same...

It's just my Life, Story,
minute by second a story
That goes on forever
with each breath that i take,
this is my Life, Story,
celebrating my story
with smiles, and tears, and friends,
and birthday cakes...

"Get up," she said,
"Hurry, or you might be late."
Everyday we hurry off
to keep our dates.

Time rushes by,
there's no time to ask why
Still, we work to beat the clock,
to never stop for goodbyes...

Maybe i should stop awhile,
to see the world around me
Discover how some things move on,
and some things never change

Ever since i was a child,
i'd felt that life is funny
It'll twist and turn, from dusk to dawn
yet stay the same...

It's just my Lifestory,
minute by second a story
That goes on forever
with each breath that i take,
this is my Lifestory,
celebrating my story
with smiles, and tears, and friends,
and birthday cakes...

So, my Lifestory is self-explanatory
Won't you please start from page one,
and do go on,
till i am done....

this year's ndp looks interesting.. will be held on floats wor~! ahh. sounds damn exciting lah .

I like the song "There's No Place I'd Rather Be" by kit chan.. damn bombastic lah. it can be legally downloaded from this ndp site. sweet. But oh well, it doesnt have the song that i pasted up above. but i have the song! (as can be heard from the background.) ahhh! so descriptive of this current moment .. ... .

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Good Guys are the Ones who...

a quote of something i read from someone's bloggie.

good guys are the ones who fetch you home or accompany your car to make sure you're safe after a late night out and then only drive away once you have locked everything up, waved goodbye and closed the door.

good guys are also the ones who can't fetch you home or accompany your car to make sure you're safe after a late night out, so they give you an sms or a call (extra points for this one) to check you're alright when you get home.

but what makes them great is the knowledge that they would do the same for anyone else.

recently been going on a change in Lifestyle. I know it will work out just fine =)

rather busy in contacting people who doesnt respond to my efforts. argh. angry. wait.. OK! i will not be angry. cannot be angry. =DD (haix)

so in the meanwhile in my not-very-interesting-life-at-this-moment, i got alittle itchy-handed and went to google myself. okay, sounds stupid ar, but hey!, its through this that i 'found myself' in a place where i shouldn't be. for what reason am i appearing there? argH* this is so not appropriate when there is an account of me but not belonging to me X.X did some site(s) sell off my email? argH* someone unravel this please. *scratches head*

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我还记得 - Fish 梁静茹

kope-d from pearL's blog but with a slight 25% change to include meL.. hahaha!

十年后的今天遇见你
年少轻狂已远去
成熟稳重也保持距离
沉默里千言万语

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Black Google Would Save 750 Megawatt-hours a Year

White and bright colors (especially in backgrounds) can use up to 20% more power than black or dark colors.

　　　　　Black Google Would Save 750 Megawatt-hours a Year
an all white web page uses about 74 watts to display, while an all black page uses only 59 watts. Google gets about 200 million queries a day. That means Google is running for about 550,000 hours every day on some desktop. The shift to a black background will save a total of 15 (74-59) watts. That turns into a global savings of 3000 Megawatt-hours a year. At 10 cents a kilowatt-hour, that’s $75,000.

check that out.

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bumb. iM not walking in straight line le. bumb. ouch* >.<

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七月七日晴 - 许慧欣

说了再见是否就能不再想念
说了抱歉是否就能理解一切
眼泪代替你亲吻我的脸
我的世界忽然漫天白雪

拇指之间还残留你的昨天
一片一片怎么听见完全

七月七日晴忽然下起了大雪
不敢睁开眼　希望是我的幻觉
我站在地球边　眼睁睁看着雪
覆盖你来的那条街

七月七日晴黑夜忽然变白天
我失去知觉　看着相爱的极限
我望着地平线　天空无际无边
听不见你导演

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iM so sad , that i got such low marks for today's quiz.

iM so saD , that i will eventually have to take biz law alone.

iM soOo sad.

was on skype call just now, and my grpmate was comforting me.
oh well, not bad, at least i dont feel like S/U-ing anymore. but iM still disappointed.

haix

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4 hours before 070707

phew, one stone off my mountain of worries. today's quiz was ok. at least better than term1's paper that i've tried. and at least iM sure i've got 1 correct : Goodwill is not amortized, but tested for impairment loss. wohoo! (^.^)v ~ that's a twizz, btw.

lately, i've been stressed by this thing called Accounting. yes please do not remind me, i know its the holidays now. the thing on my A-list has gotten me so tangled that my sleepless nights are back. sleepless in the sense of having to take a lonngggg time to fall asleep. like yesterday, i took 1 hour to fall asleep when i could have continued to mug through the night. haix. that's a result of having too much stuff running through my mind.

tomorrow is 07.07.07. anything nice to look forward to? humpF.

oh yeah, goodie good good that i've finally claimed the webcam that iM supposed to have gotten in Feb. that was for the sign up of wirelessSG. cool. now my skype is finally complete with all the necessary 'gadgets'. but oOops, i only have 10 contacts, and none are active ones. wonderfuL. loL~

Beautiful dreamer, wake unto me,
Starlight and dewdrops are waiting for thee;
Sounds of the rude world heard in the day,
Lull'd by the moonlight have all pass'd away

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Happy 21st Birthday yuE ~!

all of a sudden, iM overwhelmed with this feeling of guilt. one of my kid whom i had given my contact to sent me a bye² mms 3 times because i clarified that i couldnt always sms back some of the messages that i felt need not be sent to me. it is a mistake in the first place. being a first timer, i was too soft. a goodbye is not needed, i'll be there if my kids really need external help, but if a message is already perceived that way, i guess, well, i guess it would be better not to reply /..\

Fireworks are pretty but shortlived. its memories can be captured on screen, just as how memories of your lifestory can be. Today is the 21st birthday of a friend who has been with me for more than half my life. The times we laughed together, played together in each other's (mostly your) house, bake cookies and cake, share similar interest (guZ, remember?), sang K, played majong, went shopping, and shared our joys and woes. In every section of our individual life, we have different groups of friends whom we contact and relate more to. Although the roles we play in each other's life changes from time to time, iM really pleased that our friendship has not dwindled a single bit. As we move on to begin a new chapter in life (mine soon as well), iM sure we'll pick up even more memories and further strengthen our friendship. I'll always be here whenever you need a shoulder to rest on, of course, to all my other friends as well.

It is not the number of years, or even months, that counts in rating the stand of a friendship, it is the consideration of whether the person is there for you when you needed a push or to rest against. or even more, are you there for your friend?

recently have been quite perplexed by some stuff. got me thinking for quite some while, and got no concrete help even when i consulted a friend.. hahaha! even though brain activities encourages more formation of neuro-connections.. but.. hahaha! oh well, energy should be conserved =P i guess i should be putting more energy on accounting. nah, 6 days a week is not enough >.<

Time flies. Soon soon, it will be very soon.

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20.07.2007

20072007 . nice number right.. there is also another nice number for this year , 07.07.07 . but it does not mean just as much.

this holiday has been hectic for me.. gotta catch up with scool studies right after my 10 days work ended.. and iM still chasing after the lessons. argH* there was this night (dawn) before my ystd's lesson that i slept at only 3.30am when iM supposed to wake up and be in school by 9.30am. damn sad lah, i spend the entire 'rest' day at home studying accounting and i still wasnt able to understand everything and complete my tutorial practice. that's like only 5 qns per practice! argH* of course i was alittle late for the morning project meeting, but i had only managed to sleep 4.5 hours! no, that's not sleep esply when its not even deep. its a nap! haiX -_-

and despite having only a small rest time the dawn before ystd, i had a long day out to find presents. yes, 21st year pressie. 2 celeBs lining straight up this wkend. oh well, it might be late to buy it just few days before, but at least we manage to catch it before the GST increase. ahhh! its an expensive item, so that's why cannot bare that GST increase wor. hehehe! not so lucky for mine though >.<

gratitude. that's something you usually show your friend during their birthdays. what about normal days? like a quick sms from/to your childhood friend to say that you're missed, an occasional phone call by/to friends you seldom contact, an email from/to your oversea friend, initiation of a meet up by/with people you seldom meet, and etc.

but seriously, how many of you actually does that? it goes 2 ways, and it shouldnt be the case that it is always that one person who is asking for a meetup or planning for a gathering. thinking back, i take on different roles in different circle of friends. think about it, does sitting back and waiting for others to take action in contacting you means that you do not treasure the friendship? not necessarily, there's space for everyone to debate regarding this. for me, sometimes iM plain lazy, or i might be too busy, or i might be thinking that others will take on the role of contacting. or, i might just not be close to the person.

does the friends around us appreciate these actions of simple rememberance? at least i do. a 'junior' of mine recently came back from Taiwan for holiday. though we had not contacted for some months, this friend still remembered that i had asked for a book from Taiwan even when i had forgotten abt his trip. there is this other friend who asked for a meetup the night before flying off for some trip even when the luggage is still unpacked. and there is also this friend whom we had took turns to ask each other out in the month before this person goes on a semester-long overseas exchange prog. i remember once, we were lost at night in the midst of finding some eatery. memories that will bring through the period when this friend is not around. it's really regretible that we are not able to meet up once again before the person leaves, but it is enough considering that we met up afew times in 1 month despite not having met up at all in the past 1+ years. yes, we caught up with one another before the distance will prolly start drawing again. anyway. it means just as much when a person is willing to spend one of their few hours with you before leaving. and its really delights me when i know that someone remembers what you say from months ago. and even moreso, friends who buys you things when they're on a holiday. note, it is not the things they buy that matter, it is the simple point that they remembers you even as they're enjoying. even if it means just to drop of an email or sms, or writing a letter and send to your friend back in your homeland. it sounds simple, but how many of you will be willing to spend that effort? have any of you even thought of it? well, it may acutally be more tedious than buying a souvenir for them. but imagine receiving a pleasant surprise. it means alot to the receiving party, wouldn't it?

yesterday as i was out, i received web smSes (yes, starhub provides free) from my mum to tell me that iM missed. so sweet of her =) but how many times do i call home when iM out, just to tell them that they're missed? i feel so bad.

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it sounds abit wrong considering that "catching up" is a term used on friends who rarely meet and has alot to chat and update about, but anyway, its good to have caught up with each other before this friend flies off.

have fun and take care!

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啄木鸟 - 两个女生

我小心翼翼默背
每句你的话语
寻找一丝爱的证据
多么疲惫的游戏

只想讨你欢心
忘了照顾我自己

第一次看的电影
记得是个悲剧
你没看见我的眼泪
大步走在我前面

我没有怪你粗心
那一夜就该体会
你不懂女人的心

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I Believe You. I love you. I have decipher the code. :)

I'm sorrie if I say anything wrong... u will still come for the appointment won't u? Let me fetch you on that day, okie? Only you can help yourself. come on, reply a yes... Vent your thoughts to others please... it's the only way out. Ease your illusions! Let me help... You've gonna come for it! Only you... yourself can help yourself... Understanding yourself is most important...

An excerpt from a book that i read some time ago. there's supposed to be some kind of message in those writings, as according to what the male character in the book claims to the female character. looks familia huh, dudes =P and as i was clearing my phone of messages, i came across this message that my friend sent me regarding that. I did not understand how writing on a paper can help to decipher it (as claimed in the book), but anyway, my friend claimed to have broken the code, and sent me that. and if you got to know or i just had to say, that for just that while, my heart raced.

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I am really pissed. just the 2nd day back from the camp and I've already that so many things have fallen apart.

Committee. oh please, what is going on. this section has only 4 person including me, and there can still be a break down in communication. In the 10 days that I was away, i received no updates even tho i had explicitly stated that I will have NO internet access and sms is too slow a form of communication. no one updated me that an excutive summary + budget is supposed to be in by 15th. no one bothered to explore into other ideas after the first had been rejected. thanks alot. although things have gotten back to path now, work delegated once again, but I just had to say that the team is soOoo efficient. I'm really sorry if anyone within the comm has to hear this. Prolly I'm just too worked up that people always tend to procrastinate work. haix.

School. yeah, I'm indirectly threatened by the course 'mistress' on the course site that i might be de-registered as I had missed the first week of inter-semester lessons. argh. iM so damn worried lah. dugged her email her and sent her an email to seek 'repentence and forgiveness'. hahaha! ok, but basically what i asked for is to Not be removed from the course. brRrr* scared.

Family. ok, just had to add something else the 2 points above doesnt seem to justify the word "many" that I had mentioned in the very first para. my poor wanG² vormitted thrice today, and vormitted the day before as well. poor thing. he barely had Any food the whole of today.

Camp. ok, there are too many things to mention about. not only do i have disappointment at some of the people in the camp (i emphasize some, not 1, so its not huat u might be thinking) , I am even more disappointed at myself. I probably did not mention, but these 2 camps affected me alot.

but one cheerful thing that happened on the last of the 10 days was that as a participant dropped by to find me as she collected some other stuff. Her mum was with her, and she said that her girl was so much more energized after seeing me. it made it even more meaningful to me coZ she's not my kid. that small effort of appreciation really touched me alot, judging that I had but could not tear for TTP even tho my kids were basically out of control. okay, that's not the point. but right back to reality after that hugging and quick talk, I really felt really discouraged by the end results of the 2nd batch of kids. haiX.

i'm really tired. i shld have slpt 3 hrs ago, but settling all those stuff made me really wanna blog tonight. pearL ah, sorry i still haven reply ur email. we meet up some time after ur working hours k..? >.<

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afterall, a photographer will always live up to his name. The cake is just as delicious as it looks =) met up with my junior college classmates ystd.. was rather disappointed that only 2/3 of those who promised to come did manage to turn up. oh well, i did my best /..\

as i was clearing my phone of rubbish messages just moments ago, I came across all those messages and pictures that I had since some time ago.. 喜唰唰! so many memories. so many people whom i miss. where have you all gone to?!

iM quite tired, considering that i had to be in school by 8am this morning (apart from the side point that i was still alittle late), and i will have to be up by 5.30am tml morning, i should be in bed an hour ago. but but, iM still preparing for the 10 days of SK. rawr! no accomodation and strict laws. aww. can i buy time to sleep? >.<

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wonderful.. iM talking to an unknown XYZ person on my blog. loL~

life hasnt been easy for everyone.. and many a times, u'll prolly find yourself constrained by pressures that can take any/many forms either externally or internally. in those times, u know that u will not be able to pursue what u would otherwise love to. who could have not experienced that?

that's right. sometimes in life, u somehow just have to be poked at. iM sorry my dear friend, but i have to admit iM really quite irritated by what u did today. which explains my turn-off attitude. if anything, iM sorry. but i guess i had to go to some extreme to show that iM really pissed. i hope u caught it well. i know u have good reasons in the times u called me that, but when u do not get the situation right, please refrain from using that term. once twice or thrice is alright. but when u that see iM going to blow up, esply when the external situation is already so nerve-wrecking, to all my friends, please stop testing my patience. i roar! and at 10.34pm i just roared. whether people mean it that way or not, iM very sensitive to the tone, voice & attitude that people use. argh ok sorry.

phew. iM alright =) the day ended really good (except for that roar). no one can buy my memory now! (sSssh) lalalala~ yay! ;)

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...

take in a deep breath

...

exhale

...

tomorrow will a better day

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Smile at each other,
Smile at your wife,
Smile at your husband,
Smile at your children,
Smile at each other.
- it doesn't matter who it is
- and that will help you grow up in greater love for each other.

Mother Teresa

Many times in life, whether a thing is worth doing or not, really depends on how u look at it. Take up all your courage and do something your heart tells you to do so that you may not regret not doing it later in your life...

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S.K. 1 . 2007

the 2nd day break from camp. whew, its been so long since iM that shag out. but surprisingly, my dark circles have not grown to be too bad considering that i had barely 6 hrs of sleep per day >.<>

the coaches there really are great people and i had formed quite some friendships there. their trademark is to show appreciation and the hugging of people, which made me felt really warm and welcomed. but but, just at the last day, i received feedbacks that i am really damn quiet on the first day (and prolly still alittle on the 2nd). hey, i've gotta justify that iM the type of person who likes to observe new environments instead of plunging right down and risking chances of using the wrong/undesired coaching methods. oh well, the PD also mentioned that they ( i wonder who's involved ) were to try all methods to get me to open up. oh. and that immediately got me to wonder if the warmness i felt from those experienced coaches are not really sincere friendship. you can say that it bothers me quite abit, coZ i will need to reassess myself on whether i seem weak to others or what-so-ever.

as pointed out, it is definite that we new coaches from NTU and SMU are pressured to perform. come on, coaches there can be as young as 14 -16 years old, and they are performing well, so shouldn't us, as elder kids than them, perform at least just as well? at least we still lie within the children/teenagers/young_adults' age catergory and know how to deal with kids. but should parents with children know just as well, if not better? then how come the new adult coaches do not feel as welcoming as the teen coaches? well at least i sense that adult dictatorialship on me. like for example, although this chap had the experience of a camp as a participant before this, we are both new coaches. but during activities, this chap (and some other adult chaps) have this : 'oh what u did is wrong' thing abt me. yeah yeah, i admit my mistake and am v willing to change IF i am wrong. and adults, in correcting others, please do not make the same mistake yourself just within seconds of correcting others. and what more absurd is that upon clarification with the PD, i realised that iM NoT wrong. grown adult with kids. typical. and what i realised about this group of older new-coaches is that they like to label things as theirs that we cannot touch them. sigh.

it does seem that i observe coaches more than the kids. well of course, kids are more innocent. they dont need much cracking to enter in, you just need to have the right set of skills to interact and play around with them to get them to open up. it justifies that i need to observe adults more as i need to learn coaching skills and techniques from them. which also explains that if i were to write review for coaches instead of the children in the camp, i will be able to write more readily. oOops >.<

in a nutshell, the experience is really worth it and i definitely do not regret going for it. i strive to improve much much more in the next camp, and i really hope that i wont die from the next 2 consecutive camps iM taking. oh shit, how come i have a bad feeling that it will be extremely exhausting. XD

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That's What Friends Are For - Dionne Warwick & Friends

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say "That I do believe I love you"
And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today and then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you
And then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Ohh, That's what friends are for

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anyone wanna go Butterfactory nxt thurs? tix only at $14 each (inclusive of a drink)

alternatively, anyone wanna go MOS nxt thurs with me? free entrace but of, with no complementary drink.

sms me if u have any interest for either of the above.

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upon doing a short test by Nokia to find a suitable phone for each individuals, i was allocated this phone that looks is similar to my current phone.

not bad, at least there is improvements in both the appearance and functionality of my phone as compared to this new phone. its 6grams lighter (like, wow?), 2mm longer but 3 mm thinner, has improved resolutions, a 3megapx cam, allows video calls, allows audio messaging (??), has bluetooth and 3G service (as if i'll use it), and more importantly, it allows for expandable memory SD card! woot. the only set back is prolly that this phone does not allow wifi service. cannot make use of the free wifi singapore now has >.<

but well at least i finally found a phone that i can fall back on if i were to renew my plan..

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曾经拥有，应该就算了吧。

曾经拥有，应该就算了吧。

但我不甘。我就是不甘。

一年前听到的话，现在又再次听见，不应该较能接受吗？

命运还是弯不了。该发生的终究会来临的。

七年的公主生活还是得结束。

一切都不在我掌握之中；告诉我，也只是要我有个准备。

我将失去这一切。

是的，如果我举办即邀哪个你来我家为我庆２１岁生日，请用心的看下眼前的一切。

为我记住这美丽的家。

也且别送我些我不须要的东西，反正一切都是带不走的。

如果你们有意问我发生什么事，我定会心领， 但倘若我不说，请恕我在那刻不愿多谈。

我会没事的。

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眷恋 - F.I.R. 飞儿乐团

把爱深埋在记忆中　说不出口一种难过
给祝福太多　不能覆盖我的痛
你要转身你要走　不再多作停留

分开是谁说没什么　最难的决定是放手
眼中的落寞　说得都是我的错
当你笑着挥挥手　你的沉默我懂

请别说爱我　推我向晴天
最温暖的天空　却换了季节
在绝望的面前　洒落一地心碎
就算是伤悲　我不想太狼狈

请别说爱我　别许下心愿
下一秒就出现　你给的纪念
风吹过了思念　曾有过的眷恋
哭红了双眼　再让我心痛一天

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aww, iM so amazed at myself for being such a hardworking pig. you see, my time is spent in either work or sleep. what else can i be termed as.

i really find myself very useful to the group. doing this doing that. writing the minutes when the rest forgets. helping out with the designing of the prototype, designing of the company logo and business plan stuff, and i can contribute my marketting knowledge too. even help the people incharge of biz plan to construct the survey when everyone in that team has forgotten. they even missed the dateline, and if not that i had already prepared it out in the internet format, they wld not be able to hand in anything. omg, i find myself really useful (note, not helpful, but useful) loL~ pats to myself (for i get no recognition? sigh. nvM 习惯就好)

and what else, i had that Modelling and Rendering module the last 2 weeks that often ate into my home=relaxation timing. plus some outside thing to handle, and my club's meeting to engage in.

and when i dont work, its either sleep or tv/drama time. loL~ let me see, i woke up at 1pm on suN, yet still had 3.5 hours of afternoon nap that day. omG. it resulted in me sleeping late, and then a vicious reverse-cycle of me having barely 5 hours of sleep last night. yawnz. i have not gone out since that night to clark quay. that was 2 weeks ago?! omG! what a holiday is this. argH! online meeting has ended, wrapping up with some MSN side chats, + blogging. so now, YAWNZ! grr.

good night, hardworking pig =)

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sigh. its difficult being an idol. so many people to please. loL~

its difficult enough to have 2 person hammering over you. of coz, who doesnt like to be loved and pampered. its just that when they get, you know, a little naggy.. haiX. this is one of the times i just feel like doing against what they nag about. but i know that my eyes are sagging. i should listen to myself. okay, i know.

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i've been reading a lot of blog entries by youths in my agency's website, and many of them have been so deeply hurt in their relationships that they no longer believe in love. i think it's sad... love is such a beautiful feeling, how can there not be love??

i believe that love exists. true love definitely exists, because my parents have proven it to me. i think that's because we are too young to comprehend the true meaning of love, of which love is supposed to be UNCONDITIONAL. many have lost faith in it and hated their ex for saying 'i love u' and ended up breaking up with them and so on... but think it's because the word "love" has been overused. it's more like 'i like u, i adore u' but instead we replaced it with 'love', and we feel hurt when it really isn't love.

and when we say, 'i love him a lot a lot... but he doesn't do this... he doesn't make me happy....' aren't we guilty of misusing the word "love" too? we expect things in return. we expect the other party to be our definition of a "good bf/gf"... we don't love them unconditionally, and we only choose to love what benefits us. isn't this selfishness?

Love is patient, Love is kind,
It does not envy, it does not boast,
It is not proud, It is not rude,
It is not self-seeking,It is not easily angered,It keeps no record of wrongs,
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
Love always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.
Love bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends.
L o v e N e v e r F a i l s.
Corinthians 13 : 4 - 8

only when we can comprehend the above can we truly understand what love is, and how to love our partners. it's difficult, and it definitely takes time.

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How come the dove gets to be the peace symbol? How about the pillow? It has more feathers than the dove, and it doesn't have that dangerous beak.

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试问有哪个男人能真正的了解女人呢？

不沟不通，沟了就通

女人只要认识一个男人就能明白全部的男人，
但就算男人认识了天下间的女人，也不会明白她们。

试问有哪个男人能真正的了解女人呢？

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Dear Sir/Madam

Congratulations! You will soon be turning 21 years old. This will, no doubt, be a major milestone in your life.

With your coming of age, you will fall within the age group of Singapore Citizens -_- and Permanent Residents covered by the Human Organ Transplant Act (HOTA).

blabla. so that is their motive. hahaha! Sg Gvt is really smart to have these important letters hand delivered to the respective house, so that people cannot take the excuse of not receiving the letter, and hence refusing to donate, in the future.

and why is letter dated April 2007 when i only received today? argH* so inefficient!

what if the person is close to a brain dead state? will doctors go ahead to remove their life support? awwW.

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恋上另一个人 - 游鸿明

忽然一场阵雨
世界缩为屋檐
你熟悉的侧脸
回头就在眼前

一分神　丢了手里烟
坠落了　燃烧的岁月
让画面　再接回从前
省略了　昨天的昨天

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life gets pretty interesting at times. especially when opportunity comes knocking on your door and even waits for your reply. have been quite busy recently with some module homework so hadnt been able to update about this.

yes opportunity. it has waited for me for a week. how many opportunities actually come knocking on your door and waits for you patiently? confirmed it just about an hour ago. yes, my flight just take on from here. i will persevere no matter how hard it is, read up and ask whatever that iM not clear in, and strive!

when the time comes,
when love and hate is past the stage,
when everything is over,
and then the cloud clears,
you can then finally face situations with a smile.
that is when optimism lights up your day.

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1st day of EID

pain. tiredness.

sigh. why is the first day of holiday school so traumatizing?! the homework lasted me till noW! argH*

ache. weariness.

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yeah, some things are better to be left unsaid, the saying is indeed right. time changes everything. your personality, character, behaviour, mentality. everything, just everything. that's why you just have to let time take its way. that era will eventually worn off you.

that's why girl, don't be sad anymore. as a friend, iM really worried for you. yet there i cant phrase it out. i hope you understand. haiX iM really feeling so bad to not be able to outwardly help you.

these 2 days have been a really interesting. since fri till now, have had less than an hour of sleep but still going strong. still playing majong at this time woR! loL~ the change that i sometimes see in myself is really appalling! 2 of the rest also had only an hour of sleep dawn this morning.

yeP, talked alot, caught up alot of whatever that is lost of this 1 year. got news that this friend of mine is going overseas to pursue the dreams and plan that this friend has laid out. i really applaud you for what you envision, for your perseverence, and i wish you success.

i was quite surprised that i had eaten thrice in that span of 10 hours. omg!

lets see, we had talked about the usual - friends and grades. what was addition was that we had chatted slightly on the future plans of one another, visions, pillars of support, and other more taboo subjects such as religion, some tainted past happenings, and relationships. of course there are alot more to this to fill that hours of catching up session than that pathetic few words that i have tagged to the situation. overall, i find that we had really grown. to handle a situation posistive and as suavely as possible. as easily as this may be said, it was really difficult to display it. speak of the truth, i chad never imagine with can be so causal and normal once again. as mentioned, things change as we grow. we change.

right, hope this is not just a sudden sparkle of friendship renewal. i believe not in letting friends go when some faults crop up on your journey of life as paths cross. i will wait for the time where we will find them back. the midst was just there for a certain time, but when it clears, we will reap even more benefits from this renewed friendship, wont we? prove me yes my friend, prove me =)

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Good Night!

おやすみなさい！

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Holiday?

anyone willing to pay $270/= for the price-per-person of airtiX to-and-fro taiwan?

or ard $140 for to-from airtiX to Thailand?

or $230/= for to-fro tiX to Hong Kong?

and that includes the airfare-related surcharges, fees and taxes. hehehe! anyone wanna goOooo? >.<

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Change is not a part of me

I do not belong to this world
As far as I can see
Left behind just because
Change is not a part of me

Trying to be myself needs being another
Trying to copy what I cannot be
I have to imitate just because
Change is not a part of me

Even if I tried to change
I'm still the same, can't be free
As long as change is a part of living
Change is not a part of me

Pretending to be one of them
Is more worse than a poor documentary
Everything's changing very fast but
Change is not a part of me

I do not belong to this world
Even if I imitate and pretend to be
Now I die trying to, for
Change is not a part of me

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the Adam Khoo Leadership Training Group

do i love kids? i've worked at a childcare centre, and i know how kids can be so adorable yet on your nerves when they misbehave at times. those innocent little fellows will come hugging you very soon after being scolded by the same you, forgetting bad memories as soon as the event is over. aww, such innocence.

that's one of the reasons why i had signed up for the coming camp instructor course. despite being paid for it (if you are selected, that is), one of the other pulling factor is the children. imagine working with children around you. and of course, the nature. what a wonderful change will that be, compared to working in the office with all those black faces to tackle and the demanding work scope to deal with.

well, who says that working with children is not demanding? they definitely have alot of requests for you. aww, isnt there always the saying that children gives you trouble because they want your attention? yep, love is the answer for most of the questions. the thing that can solve the problems in what the adults-environment cant do much. oh, that's apart from those boss-subordinate LovE though. >.<>

thus, i really hoped that i'll be able to get that task as a camp facilator. a job it might be, but a holiday gateway as well. =)

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虚拟人间

© 虚拟人间

funny? but behind every picture lies a moral. who say illustration books are only for kids?

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~`*Princess Prayer*`~

Being a princess is too hard,
making choices, holding the card.
But what I like about being a princess is,
I don't have any time to wait to see whose my prince.

A princesses job is to be beautiful,
show some faith,
be a little magical
and keep her hair straight.

Princesses are special,
but there is no princess like me,
I am a princess, as you can see.

Only pretty princesses can attract a prince
only magic princesses can concoct a ship.
I'm such a princess, but now I am asleep,
so bend over here and kiss me.

I'm a sleeping beauty, all is true.
I'm a cutie, more than you.
I'm so the princess for you to love and care,
so hold me up and say your prayer.

loL~ of coZ i didnt write that. iM innocent! >.<

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i thgt JC Saints portal is closing today?

Due to very low usage, we are unable to justify continuing to provide the portal and email service beyond april 2007. This site will be closed from april 2007 onwards.

oh, nah, it'll be shut in july. hmm. anyway, that looked extremely appetizing. i wanna try!! yuMz.

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I Believe You - Goodybooks.com

ah, it has been an exhausting day.

A new message came in. Vent your thoughts to others please… it's the only way out. I replied a No again and looked at Landy. I was lost for words. She had hit my vital point. Jacky then replied, Ease your illusions! let me help…

iM prolly alittle regretful in starting to read the online book that late. but i was rather glad i held it till after exams, for it took me quite some hrs in completing the readings, and the story was simply breath-taking. really.

I'm sorrie if I say anything wrong… u will still come for the appointment, won't u? Let me fetch you on that day, okie? Only you can help yourself. come on, reply a yes…Vent your thoughts to others please… it's the only way out. Ease your illusions! let me help…You've gonna come for it! Only you… yourself can help yourself… Understanding yourself is most important…

i guess if i were to read again, again and again, my reactions will still be the same.

Remember: To be happy, you either change the world, or you change your thinking. To be realistic, you have to change your thinking to be happy. But me, I will change the world for you.

oh man, i wonder where this guy thinks of these mushy (yet sweet) stuff. aww.

... And his name is Jacky Wu Zhong Xian ...

and i broke into laughter. loL~ catch more here (but please make sure ur exam is over alright?)

thanks zY once again! else i'll die from wanting to know the ending >.<

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have not had much time to laze ard (except today) for the past few days.

so after that fateful piece of lettuce that tortured me for the entire night, i've finally gotten abt to install MSN on my lappy. yep, virutal life is on its way bacK~ =) i've decided to myself to be proactive in chatting and (try) not to wait for pple to click on me. hahaha! (oh yeah?)

went out with chenny on fri (even tho she still have 1 more paper) she introduced a nice turkish restaurant at Far East (yummy but spicy!) and we tried so many nice clothes that it got her so tempted to buy. its really v v nice, but hey, it cost a whopping 138 for a piece of dress wor. hahaha! i wont even dream of getting it with the financial situation iM in now (and u as well girL) .

slept early that night (say 12am?) coz was really drousy, and had a real bad dream. dreamt of my friends dying. argh* so scary. i think i spent too much energy in my dreams in worrying. one friend said before, that dreams are often the opposite of reality. hmm, maybe they'll struck rich? >.<

woke up ard noon time for a swim (ahh, first in 1 year? oOops) and met a friend for lunch. at least this friend is intact and in 1 piece. haix. dreams are sometimes so real /..\ spent the rest of the afternoon packing my hostel room to move out that night.

was waiting for pizza to come and watching the ch8 wkend show in the TV Lounge while waiting for my mum and cousin to come. and omG, it was damn paiseh lah. after settling for some time, these 3 pple whom i somewhat knew asked if i was watching the show. and after i said yes, the whole bunch of pple, including pple behind me, left the lounge (for other lounges). it was like half emptied just because i, 1 person, am watching that show. ahh. where can i hide myself. so, in the commercial breaks, i went to ju's room, and she had just gotten the news abt me. hahaha. omg. and by the time we went back down (that's just like 2 mins), the whole tv lounge is flooded with pple, the channel has been changed to sports-soccer, and pizza had already came. heheheh! and i saw those same pple i had unwittingly chased away. ahhh! XD damn paiseh lah!

after that episode and a well stuffed pizza dinner, moving of my barangs down from the 5th floor seemed like a tremendous chore. hence, had a v long and only slighty dreamy sleep that night (from 1am to 3pm). pig right. hahaha! and tho its 1.55am now, and i've been feeling tired since some 3 hrs ago, i've finally decided to turn-in. ah. gotta wake up at 10.30am tmL. will that be possible feat? >.<

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