i've been craving for this ever since the last time we went. but it seems meaningless now even upon seeing this discount coupon.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Sunday, July 27, 2008
没有人 - 曾宝仪
我终于看到她了。我终于知道她的长相了。
虽然这些日子以来我都有在忙着，但是静下来的时候，难免还是会有种莫名的伤痛。你说过不是，你说过没有。我一直都很想相信你，但是坦白来说，我真的真的，真的，无法相信你说的没有。最近都有在追8频道的【天使的烙印】，好神奇的一部戏……似乎在开导我，似乎在描述着那么熟悉的一段插曲。
我问你最近认识什么人，
你的沉默已经比你先承认；
没有，你对我说没有人。
我陪你开车兜圈昏沉沉，
你的拥抱说著你不诚恳，
没有，你对我说没有人。
你为他失了魂，你为他从早到晚等著电话等著没有人
你曾经对我说，这世界上没有人会像我为你被风吹不冷，哦没有人。
你车上开始出现你我从来不爱听的歌，
你曾经对我说，这世界上没有人会带走一点你对我真，待我问候没有人……
是真的。把手里的沙立握的太紧会使它流失，但被忽略的是，手也会痛，也会痛着好一些时候…………
我好想放假。
The Seventh Tuesday We Talk About The Fear Of Aging
"The truth is, when our mothers held us, rocked us, strode our heads - none of us ever got enough of that. We all yearn in some way to return to those days when we were completely taken care of - unconditional love, unconditional attention. Most of us didnt get enough."
happy birthday!
Thursday, July 24, 2008
wrap-up of GIP Shanghai :: Jan-Jul 2008
it has been one full month back, to the time when i've landed at T1. i'll never forget the experience I had throughout the return trip. it was different, and i vow never to travel alone again - well, except for working trips if there's no choice...
back in singapore, life has gone back to its natural course. study + hang out. life doesnt seem as much interesting as how it had been in the big plot of Yellow land. the friendship that we forged while we were there, the people whom i've gotten to know, all seem to fall back in their own respective life. 1 month from my return then, i shall recollect and have an aftermath on the trip.. here it goes..
*ps : put your cursor over the pic if you wanna see the captions
the people...
ahlum, i must really say you're the 最可怜 of all. always bullied by the rest. hahaha but dont worry, you're not as 浦西 as they say ;)
chips! i know a cheese, and now a chips. what's next? hahaha. you're a cheery guy, more than most of the other 三号s.. so i hope you wont let ur low time affect your general happiness level! (i hope you get me if you do see this >.<)
grey. Grey grEy greY. hahaha we sure did not give you a wrong name =P you've been a really great and fun company, but i guess those times has passed and we're back to being busy in our own separate lives. and now if you think back, what i say may be true, about the spore food hunts you had talked abt back there. remember? hahaha! how can there be when i have difficulty even to get my SD card from u! omg lol~
不要冒冒然！ i'll miss calling this name.. its funny how much fun/joy i derive from just calling it. hahaha! i (we) really think you're a living cartoon, so funny and cheerful! =) oh yeah, if you see this, please dont forget that i'm still waiting for my comic drawing, and to see your comic strip on your famous 世上有 四种人 三种人…… wahahhaa
yuyu! hahahha i doubt i'll ever call you this in sch. so weird. lol~ guess its one of the things that will stay in SH. well, i dunno whether i can say that i've got to know you very much further from this trip, but i'll always remember that i keep telling you the two words.. 认真！ hahahha you'll know in which area..
oli.. sometimes you worry too much beyond what you could ethically could have for others. of coz that's not something bad, but its only detrimental to your own personal turmoil. aeh... hahaha! anyway, i hope you're happier now =) ps: its a pity if the 三号人 joke is brought to class. but dont worry i wont add oil. hahahha
mama, tho i very seldom call you that. you've been really really busy since you were back huh, sososo hard to meet you up. only maos can. hahahah! okokie, i dont wanna be chopped. many say on the first encounter with us that we look alike, but we all know how very different we are. really, i admire your independence you know =)
wei ar.. think i dont really know you as well as i could have ba.. there was one sentence you said in our last talk that night, in that we choose our friends, is right. well, but thinking back, i really did enjoy my time with you on the backpacking trip with the guys.. i quoted that coz i think that was the time we really had the most interaction ba.. hahahha
mr O, 郭先生, and mr da. hahahha! a bunch of funny dudes who alwayssss like to bully me - though i know very well with kind intentions. i think i'm missing abit of their witchimiya-ing. lol~ mr O, remembered for donating me breakfast and most for the one who most bullies me. hahaha! 郭先生, remembered for his exclamations and exasperation on my talking habbits, as well as how he loves to treat people to ice-creams when he is stressed up at work. *even ice-creams in spore is so ex! i cant find one at 20cents. sobs. can i import from the Yellow land? hahahah* Mr Da, often at 'loggerheads' coz he always wanna puke blood at many of the things i say. but he's one of the nicer one coz at least he doesnt bully me that much, and we have much to chat abt. hahaha! oh yeah, almost forgot that we have a common type of enemy whom(s) we so often talked abt in the earlier times..
well, those pointers that have been mentioned are not limited to itself, but these are the ones that popped into my head first, hence listed down for memorial =) aww dont be disappointed.
missing in the 三楼三号 is the other Mr Da.. a bunch of cheery pple. and one of whom likes to comment about me wearing my black gloves (yea, thats when winter is over - but still in the cool season). my 杀手 gloves. lol~ forgot how it started tho. bleah
the food..
*no pics for these.. coz haven upload yet.. might update this section when i've uploaded the pics if i find any..*
in the beginning, i had some difficulty accepting the food there.. imagine being welcomed to SH with cold soya drink and cold 油条 and yet with the Office pple saying that it is one of the standard breakfast there.. luckily i came to realise not. oh, talk abt breakfast, i loveeee the sushi roll that is sold near Fudan. my favourite of all. its not simply sushi that you can imagine yea.. its with the red rice (i think its 麦), and fried crispy 油条 inside, with sugar and and some 咸菜, and a choice of whether to add egg/sausage, and/or wrap with seaweed - which i always will have the seaweed wrap. and it only cost $0.60 SGD. omg. i'll buy whenever i see that, and the stall near my sch is the best of all. okie, enough of it, the second best breakfast will be 沙县… the 福建 ones which are populated ard the city =)
oh yeah, the food there is superrrr salty and oily. luckily i had time to accustom into it, tho i still took quite some time to.. every dinner is usually 外买 (the actual term is 外送 coz they 外出 of their stall to 送 to us. 外买 actually means the same as our 打包 of food). of coz, there were the times we cooked. the upz period was a period where we cooked twice/thrice a wk for a few wks, then, we got busy/lazy.. hahahah
oh yeah, but the food there is cheap, say, we can enjoy a great steamboat - which we had on our first night of arrival - for only ard $6SGD ! omg. that is like our local food court price?? got a little shocked when i realised that i can no longer buy a plate of chicken rice at 3SGD from food courts. sobs. oh and the burger meal, at this place called Blue Frog near 正大.. fabulous.. and upon discount, its only 8SGD! no 17% tax, english speaking waiters/-tresses, and good service attitude. how often can you incorporate cheap and good service here in my home land? sigh.
and there's 苹果园.. that's the name of a chain stall that sells bread (like bread talk). but their bread is, woah, fabulous. i even wanna buy it back to sing you know. but there just isnt one at 浦东.. oh man, they shld have one beside the Meglev, and one at the airport for fans like me. lol~
the POI - places of interest ...
okie, this of coz is a personal reflection, hence, the following is according to what i perceived.
1) the Bund/外滩 . standard POI. i went there, hmm, 4-5 times? there was once i was there at 外滩 to 散心 walking up and down the entire stretch took us some 1hr? okay, there's no sand, but there's the nice wind and calming water (tho busy crowd).. that was the only time that place had a vivid impression on me.. oh yeah, okay, there was another time when one of our 三号人 bought the kiddy skates/roller blades from one of the 'sales person'. damn cute of her, to playishly wanna sell it back to another sales person coz the lady offered a price higher than the one she had used to buy her pair. hahaha!
2) fudan. dont play play okie, we studied at the tallest school building of the entire SH wor.. that building is 25 stories high, almost all levels have tut/seminar rooms. cool man, the environment outside looks like Harvard. okie, i know, i need pics up soon . hahaha!
3) 正大. almost scared of the place, coz it is super big!! omg. and there was one period where i've been there very often. oh, but i have a favourite shop there, fav of all the shops in SH, and that is a puzzle shop that sells puzzles with 绘画 themes. got jimmy and little prince and 比纳派 themes! thanks to oli's company, i had prepared money to shop there, but but, it turned out that i mis-remembered the rates and it was more ex than i thgt. so... sigh.
4) QPL!! *nxt section*
shopping!!
一口价…… 诚心价…… yeah, thats what we often hear when we shop ard in SH.. not sure abt other states tho.. and the following are our usual shopping spots..
1) QPL! yes, its abbrevs for 七浦路. just look at how the outside is. its actually not one building, but many many buildings in that one small area. and the insides, woah, messy but with their respective shops defined. one can easily spend a whole afternoon in one building - and being lost there. hahahah!
2) 金桥. finally got to go there on our last month after monthssss of speaking of visiting. but too bad that by then, the 路边摊 has all gone, probably swept off by the police there. sobs. heard of this other similar place called 虹桥体育场, but no chance to go.. well, i guess i'm simply not as adventurous as mama.
3) Tao Bao!! all who stays at the Yellow land for a substantial period of time shld know abt this. its a huge online market, yeah, its a dot com, that sells almost anything that can be used. even if you're not there, maybe you can spare a min or two to look at the site now? hahahha! miss those days where we'll jsut surf ard thinking to buy this and that. woah!
4) book shopping! okay this is random, but i've bought quite alot of books, and this is with credits to mr Grey who was my tour guide with the map equiped. hahahha! i enjoyed the sessions, and if you last through all the lengthiness from the top to read this, i'll add to everyone that i'm sorry in the times that i had been/seem fierce. hehehe! it did shock me that once when grey sigh with relieve outside the 批发 near fudan.. the mighty grey of all! hahhaha well you shld know that i wasnt on my up-side in that period.. >.<
the times..
Mayday concert.. the first concert i've ever been to.. and the only till now. and cheapest too, in comparison to the rates in SG. imagine going for one by a popular band at only 30SGD?! and its meaningful considering that its one day before May Day. had wanted to go for Eason's one too, and its really a pity that i decided to give it a miss. too bad i didnt find the company in time. sigh.
chitchattokcok.. at 新天地, at Starbucks, at lounges of our hostels whilst on travel trips, at the guys place back in SH, in my room.. a randomness in it but really wonderful memories. of coz, memories are not supposed to be hugged on tight, but those are the really carefree period that i miss... with the guys drinking beer and we girl(s) drinking coke. hahahha! i'm healthy ookie.
the transports..
lets see, in SH, we have subway, buses, cabs, tricycles, and 黑车s & 黑bikes that are available for public to call for. though its one of the most expensive of all cities (maybe even more than NJ and BJ), the starting rate of cabs are priced at $2.20 but jumps at lower speed and lower cost rate than here in SG. i remember that time it took me 20bucks to get to the airport.. i thought that was ex. so near yet so far. but if we share cost, travelling in cab is actually not ex.. but of coz, we'll want to save.
of all the 'public' transports available, the only i have not tried is the 黑bikes, of which it is motocycles but available for public to hop on (and they're drive off immediately). there were the times when we went back home late, and saw so many of the 黑bikes and tricycles parked right inside the MRT indoor area right outside the gantry. oh my tian. the look of it just make me feel so unsafe. maybe i should dig up the pic of that and upload soon >.<
but can you imagine, there is no MRT other than in BJ and NJ (and of coz SH). there isnt MRT even in SuZ! okay, that city is actually not big. and in a bigger city such as Yunnan, the spots are linked by long-distance buses (up to 10 hrs!) and train rides (that actually link the whole of the Yellow land). yup, and 西安 isnt actually big. oh yeah, one point to note, the NJ MRT chip is so cute. instead of using cards, they have plastic coin-like-chips to scan upon entry and to put in a slot upon exit. damn cute lar.
the weather..
brr, it was winter when we first arrived, of which its first drop of whiteness came shortly in afew days after we landed in the Yellow land. soon, the spot on the yellow land which we are at was filled with a whiteness that was said to be much more than that in the 1984 - i hope i didnt rembr the yr wrongly. we were soon equiped with the necessary devices against the cold, and the result...
notice how bright the day is, but actually hidden behind that is the unseen cold and wind that bites into the humanly flesh. we were at 大拇指广场 that day outside a 汤圆 stall. hahahha yeah, remember the greedy us exchanging namecards (that does not belong to us!) for the warmth in the 汤圆? oops
but prolly due to the weather, and perhaps the less stressed life, i realise a great improvement in my ecze condition, which i really hope to maintain =)
the words..
we developed some special connotations in our stay there.. witchimiya was one of the first. and within the 三号人，there was RS for restless and AL for antisocial, and towards the end, there was BP for bochap, and CP for crap. notice the pattern? hhahaha
and on we go as we travel more in the passage of life, how long will the bonds we have forged carry us through? one of our 三号人 ever commented upon the end of the trip that "曲终人散，树倒猴子跑"…… will i be able to find those same pple whom i share with whilst in the yellow land, to share my sorrows with? thinking back about the question i have posed myself, that given if I know the current outcome of my personal life, would i still have chosen to go? this question... well, mayb i can say that not given the result, I will still go for it. i'm sure i wont be any much happier if i stayed, but the end result... well, guess this question will still remain as a question for this settlement period...
goodbye sh. goodbye to you too.
*tonight i hope not to have insomia*
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Sunday, July 20, 2008
改变
心若改变，你的态度跟着改变；
态度改变，你的习惯跟着改变；
习惯改变，你的性格跟着改变；
性格改变，你的人生跟着改变。
有时候需要放下
才能看见向前的步伐
放手总带不走一些牵挂
一些忘不掉的牵挂
yes because i miss you
要走的不能抓的住
我也很想告诉我自己
不能哭
yes i miss you
有一天我不会在你掌心
紧紧握住
我们的幸福
就算眼泪快要夺眶而出
我会忍住
這是分享給每一個正在為夢想努力奮鬥的你，
提醒在努力追求夢想的同時，
千萬不要忘了最初的本心……
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Happiness - Happiness Explained
watched Channel 8 【一切完美】 for the first time today. not too bad a show considering that it discusses a different genre as the norm. there was a sentence which had been repeated several times in this episode : 不看见一个人就不恨了吗？
i believe that everyone has - in their entire life up till now - ever had the feeling of hatred to a person, a group, or an event's occurance. no matter how good natured you are, it's normal to have experienced this. even Abbots ba - before they became enlightened - haha.
but why hate? one often hear others saying, you'll be the one suffering if you bear the hatred; the other party will not feel a pinch. but still, we continue having such negative emotions time and again. and this can result in negative results, either in a performance of actions/words, or internally wounded. and by scolding, it hurts both parties.. a teacher once told me, if we were to scold, reprimand not at the person, but the right way should be at person's wrong-doings (ie, actions, situation, etc) . but never should it be a direct hit like "You are stupid" or "I hate you", rather "I dislike the way you ..." .
life is so complicated - we have to consider so many aspects even when we get angry. hahaha! i think that is how psychological concerns had been in the rising state ever since humans got more complicated.
everyone is obliged (by themselves) to help themselves prevent sinking in to negative emotions. hahaha sounds like nonsense huh. anyway, that is why i have stocked up afew books related on emotions. This book that I am currently reading "Happier ... Learn the Secrets to Daily Joy and Lasting Fufillment" is good in that it provides activities and illustrations that can allow a person to reflect on their life. okay i admit, i haven't been doing a single activity that they have recommended though. this is often called 心有余而力不足……
We also have the capacity for spirituality. The Oxford English Dictionary defines spirituality as "the real sense of significance of something." Animals cannot live a spiritual life; they cannot endow their actions with meaning beyond the pleasure or pain that those actions yield.
When speaking of a meaningful life, we often talk of having a sense of purpose, but what we sometimes fail to recognize is that finding this sense of purpose entails more than simply setting goals. Having goals or even reaching them does not guarentee that we are leading a purposeful existence. To experience a sense of purpose, the goals we set for ourselves need to be intrinsically meaningful.
We could set ourselves the goal of scoring top grades in college or owning a large house, yet still feel empty. To live a meaningful life, we must have a self-generated purpose that possesses personal significance rather than one that is dictated by society's standards and expectations. When we do experience this sense of purpose, we often feel as though we have found our calling. As George Bernard Shaw said, "This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself a mighty one."
Different people find meaning in different things. We may find our calling in starting up a business, working in a homeless shelter, raising children, practicing medicine, or making furniture. The important thing is that we choose our purpose in accordance with our own values and passions rather than conforming to others' expectations. An investment banker who finds meaning and pleasure in her work - who is in it for the right reasons - leads a more spiritual and fulfilling life than a monk who is in his field for the wrong reasons.
across all walks of life, you may be busy in your own separate one, extremely busy, but are you happy in it? are you leading a life you want? are you pursuing your passion? or have you not found yet?
Are you Happier?
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
5 more days to being "22nd"...
its a sunday. only i know how much it means to me. the usual sunday activities, that will never be fulfilled for this coming sunday. it is not a present i can buy, nor one i can ask for. for how much i've onced yearned to it, it has since dwindled into a negative state since awhile back. help.
5 more days.. i dont wanna ask ard le.. why isit so difficult to find company. let it be, if i shall be at home then so be it. even if it might not be a way i'd prefer, but there's no end to asking. argh nvm. that's life.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
The Sixth Tuesday We Talk About Emotions
Same for loneliness: you let go, let the tears flow, feel it completely - but eventually be able to say, "All right, that was my moment of loneliness. I'm not afraid of feeling lonely, but now I'm going to put that loneliness aside and know that there are other emotions in the world, and I'm going to experience them as well."
"Detach," Morrie said again.
feeling quite terrible now.. been having sleepless night for more than a week. i'm actually physically and mentally drained now - actually whole of today. been in bed before midnight, but sleep just doesnt catch up with me. or should I say that I'm not catching up on sleep. ended up getting off bed and blogging at this timing. terrible timing. terrible me.
. terrible .
. help .
. need .
. detach .
. need .
. help .
. terrible .
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Love And Life Sayings || Happier - Chapter 2
The rat racer's illusion is that reaching some future destination will bring him lasting happiness; he does not recognize the significance of the journey. The hedonist's illusion is that only the journey is important. The nihilist, having given up on both the destination and the journey, is disillusioned with life. The rat racer becomes a slave to the future; the hedonist, a slave to the moment; the nihilist, a slave to the past.
Attaining lasting happiness requires that we enjoy the journey on our way toward a destination we deem valuable. Happiness is not about making it to the peak of the mountain nor is it about climbing aimlessly around the mountain; happiness is the experience of climbing toward the peak.
Friday, July 11, 2008
ramblings of the sleepless night
absorbed is a strong word. but thank you to my water bottle. haha
i cant sleep.. and i've been thinking.. what can be so complimenting, when others may think that you are attractive, but the person whom you wish to do not appreciate.. think of it this way, the model 吴尊 whom the whole world thinks is so cute, was dumped by his girlfriend. is he any much more dignified by thinking that he is admired by so many others, but yet unable to capture the girl of his heart..?
there should be a balance out there somewhere. something must have been lacking. no one is perfect. yet often in the eyes of the beholder, the other party can be upheld in such a supreme position. 情人眼里出西施…… life is so unfair. and yet, this is the life we live in.
the things that i know, are they not true..? why is it that i have so many doubts, and yet it seems to be answered so nicely. but when i think back again, it is another set of question marks. but i've learnt, as much as i want to clarify, sometimes things are better left off un-asked.
it is a big world out there. it truly is. as someone had told me, that the more he ventured, the larger he felt it is. yes, but the world is often limited by the concepts you have of life. or have i been living in my own dreams.. and now, i must say, i still have much more to learn from... so much...
我想起你描述梦想天堂的样子
手指着远方画出一栋一栋房子
你傻笑的表情又那么诚实
所有的信任是从那一刻开始
你给我一个到那片天空的地址
只因为太高摔得我血流不止
带着伤口回到当初背叛的城市
唯一收容我的却是自己的影子
时常想起过去的温存
它让我在夜里不会冷
你说一个人的美丽是认真
两个人能在一起是缘份
早知道是这样，如梦一场
我又何必把泪都锁在自己的眼眶
让你去疯，让你去狂
让你在没有我的地方坚强
让我在没有你的地方疗伤
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
ERP..
for people who drives.. though i dont think it helps since they wld have already known about it...
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
The Fifth Tuesday We Talk About Family
"I think, in light of what we've been talking about all these weeks, family becomes even more important," he said.
"The fact is, there is no foundation, no secure ground, upon which people may stand today if it isn't the family. It's become quite clear to me as I've been sick. If you don't have the support and love and caring and concern that you get from a family, you don't have much at all. Love is so supremely important. As our great poer Auden said, 'Love each other or perish.' Without love, we are birds with broken wings."
"This part of what a family is about, not just love, but letting others know there's someone who is watching out for them. Nothing else will give you that. Not money. Not fame. Not work."
Monday, July 7, 2008
至少 - 那英
纠缠的梦 把自己叫醒
催促自己把纠结看清
不管谁的错 解不开的事 只剩冷漠
催促自己把纠结看清
不管谁的错 解不开的事 只剩冷漠
叫醒我们快麻木的心 承认彼此爱已不愿意
至少还有心 让各自能重新拥有付出的能力
彼此珍惜这缘分 相互坦诚
交换勉强的感情 太天真
其实我们该认真的满足
至少没有怨 没有恨
叫醒我们快麻木的心 承认彼此爱已不愿意
至少还有心 让各自能重新拥有付出的能力
彼此珍惜这缘分 相互坦诚
交换勉强的感情 太天真
其实我们该认真的满足
至少没有怨 没有恨
分手如果是更好的 没什么会失去 爱有别的意义 还能够再关心
Sunday, July 6, 2008
so this is it..
1:27am. i have not seen anything faster than that.
1pm. i am learning.. i will learn..
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
from where you might belong
Friday, July 4, 2008
The Fouth Tuesday We Talk About Death
some chances have to be grasped at that moment.
sometimes people just needs to swallow and understand.
there are times i can only close my eyes and believe.
How can you ever be prepared to die?
"Do what the Buddhists do. Every day, have a little bird on your shoulder that asks, 'Is today the day? Am I ready? Am I doing all I need to do? Am I being the person I want to be?"
Why not?
"Well, the truth is, if you really listen to that bird on your shoulder, if you accept that you can die at any time - then you might not be as ambitious as you are."
I forced a small grin.
"The things you spend so much time on - all the work you do - might not seem as important. You might have to make room for some more spiritual things."
Well, I said.
"Even I don't know what 'spritual development' really means. But I do know we're deficient in some way. We are too involved in materialistic things, and they don't satisfy us. The loving relationships we have, the universe around us, we take these things for granted."
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
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