那年的冬天特别寒冷，
整个城市笼罩在阴湿的雨裏．
灰蒙蒙的天空，迟迟不见著阳光，
让人感到莫名的沮丧，
常常走在街上就有一种落泪的冲动．．．．
但是冬天总是会过去，春天总是会来。
Monday, November 26, 2012
Monday, November 5, 2012
Friday, November 2, 2012
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Thursday, September 6, 2012
Saturday, August 4, 2012
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
30 May 2012
today is day 3 of my rest period. in between job rest.
Mon I went to Kranji / Lim Chu Kang farm with my parents, and packed my table, cosmetics, and drawer in the afternoon.
Tue I packed a bit of my clothes cupboard.. nua a little.. then went out for dinner with my uni friends. it was past midnight when I reached home, well, who cares to ask that?
Wed morning was spent by looking through my old soft toys. took some cute photos of them, but who can I share with? Was supposed to go out for tea, but my friend couldn't go in the end.
I'm emo.
Work is always work. I appreciate if people I care abt can just drop a msg to ask me to let them know when I'm home after a late night out. share some interest in each other. thanks
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Mon I went to Kranji / Lim Chu Kang farm with my parents, and packed my table, cosmetics, and drawer in the afternoon.
Tue I packed a bit of my clothes cupboard.. nua a little.. then went out for dinner with my uni friends. it was past midnight when I reached home, well, who cares to ask that?
Wed morning was spent by looking through my old soft toys. took some cute photos of them, but who can I share with? Was supposed to go out for tea, but my friend couldn't go in the end.
I'm emo.
Work is always work. I appreciate if people I care abt can just drop a msg to ask me to let them know when I'm home after a late night out. share some interest in each other. thanks
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Feb 2012 - Low
It's 1:20am now. My eyes are sore from dryness and itch, but I still can't sleep.
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A lot of things are going on in my mind.
What really matters?
Having a partner that cares, a loving family, great friends around you, passion in your job/career.
What happens if I have a partner that shows TLC when we meet up, but seems so cold over the SMS? And no matter how much I say, there is no change. Yes, that is my boyfriend. And given my character, I am having problem accepting it.
He knew I was upset, but he doesn't know or ask why. Simple, I don't like to be ignored. The types of msges that he respond to last time can go unacknowledged now. That he will occasionally pick me home at times when I was with my friends, or pop by for a visit when he's near me after a night out, doesn't happen now. That I always seem to need to ask for some stuff I thought was basic. Like to address me something sweet, call me at times like couples do... Skype is also reduced to voice because you didn't see the need to set up webcam even though I requested you at least once.
I'm tired. I don't know what I want.
I've been thinking so much in the recent month that I'm worried I'll go into depression. Happiness only stays for some whiles.
I try not to jump into conclusion when I'm being ignored, but when the time lengthens, and the next msg comes in just as cold, I'll get upset. That you know what matters to me yet I get the same kind of reaction. And to wonder why such cold msges for the whole day. And when we meet, I unwillingly still felt unhappy, and showed it all over me. I don't like it myself.
I thought before, did we even have a honeymoon sweet period? Then, I felt no. But now that I'm constantly upset, I felt somehow yes.
I don't want you to stop your interest, BFP, etc. I want to help you in life and career. But I need your support too, not only to show care for me when you are around alone with me, but also learn to extend beyond.
Maybe my life is too boring for you to find out more about. Sadly, I always like to think negatives. When you ask me things, like about my day, or when I share with you, it seemed like the conversation cannot be carried through, short replies from you, and you are not interested in more.
Let's work with the day to day issues first, if you are willing to help me with the above. Don't give me promises, or dreams to think of, not even if you belief that it will happen by saying it. Don't say for the sake of saying. Because you may take just a few weeks to forget something or someone, but I'll take a lifetime to...
It's past 2am now. I don't blog fast. And my heart is still racing now from unsettledness. I doubt I'll sleep anytime soon. So much for your 'good night' msg of hair 'dry alrd? can slp?'..
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
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