The Things u see in others is a Mirror of Yourself...
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Saturday, January 27, 2007
21st Birthday Celebration.
omG its so coincidental, that i heard the start of my fav song of the month upon switiching on the radio. its by 周笔畅
爱 如果悄然无声
为何心会澎湃 当你眼神看过来
也许 爱是美丽意外
Oh--- 能不能对我说 说个明白
nice song to a new day. a new start to a nice day that attributes from a nice end to the prev day. =o nice, is an english term that sweeps across the acute emotion/feeling of a person. despite breaking my record in having given 3 birthday presents all in a day (that renders me really² much poorer), it was all-in-all a really great time that i had yesterday. to gather, to mix around, to catch up with one another, and to feel what is going on behind you =)
他今年农历三月六号刚满二十二
刚甩开课本要离开家看看这世界
却发现 许多烦恼 要面对 oh yeah
他常会想望能回到那年他一十二
只需要好好上学生活单纯没忧愁
他一直满怀希望
birthdays. many many birthday celebrations. i remembered the very first 21st celebration that i've been to, and come to think of it, i wasnt even 20 then yet. i was young. but i really appreciated that i was being invited, really. but prolly the mistake i made was in giving the wrong bday gift. i thought that showing more 心意 than 钱意 will be helpful, little did i think that it's not necessarily always the case. yup, i've learnt a lesson the hard way.
and since then, i've been to a few more 21st celebration. in a chalet, at a HDB void deck, in a function room ... as to what i see, the preparation and entertainment of guests seems really tiring, and that takes into consideration that they have their boyfriends to assist them in. and afterall, not all guests will get the same amount of reception from the birthday-host. though it provides some form of gathering among different group of friends, it seems quite weird to put them all together at the same time and the same place. that makes me really wonder, should i, and if so, how should i, organize my 21st birthday celebration? and what if iM not in Singapore.. ...?
Thursday, January 25, 2007
bad day, bad bad day.
with a positive, there's always a negative somewhere; with a yes, there might just lie a no to counter it somewhere, sometime. perhaps life is just as fair that. having had a lucky day yesterday, today was a bad bad day.
1) my skin aggravated (okay, that not something new)
2) my file dropped (this isnt something happening, until it caused...)
3) a shit droplet on my hair (yeah, attributing to the few steps that i slowed down just before)
4) i missed a very impt lect (i simply had to 'wash' my hair you see)
5) my dinner appmt was cancelled (argh, i hate eating alone /..\ )
6) i got news that there are no more S size hall player shirt (sobs. whywhy? the shirt is so niceeee)
7) no more papaya! (hahaha! craving ahh)
8) i 'locked' myself out of my block (when i cleverly left the access card in my room -_- )
yeah, thats all till now. hopefully end of story. however surprisingly, iM not in a bad mood. nah.. maybe just abit disappointed that the hall pres forgot to keep an S size shirt for me.
its a bad day, its a strange day.
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin on
i've just reaslised these are the lyrics to that song. no doubt this song is nice, but it does not seem to have the long lasting 'nice' effect >.<
falling to pieces everytime. i wonder how much i've changed. lets just talk about these 4 years since jC. yep, i've definitely experienced much much more than i had before that. in meeting different people, forming different friendships, going through different experiences in life - they do mould us into a stronger and better person, dont they? yet why can't i feel much of a difference from who i was 4 years ago.
at this point of time, the only change that i can think of is that iM more cautious of people and less thrifty, which is good coZ i was prolly overly thrifty in the past XD but reflecting upon my ownself, i don't seem to see any improvement in my 'sensitivity'. plus i dont seem to be opening up to others any much more. and is my attitude bad?
the last sentence came as a flashback of that thought that i had when i was chatting with racH on tues. just like me, she's an only child, and she mentioned how bad her attitude and mentality had been before she entered uni and accepted Christ. she related how 'terrible' she was, and how it kept her friends away from her.
truefully speeking, i really couldnt imagine how this nice sweet girl sitting just across me can be what she described herself to be in the past. well, that was just 4 years ago. sitting down calmly now infront of my lappy, i just wonder if i had/have factors of her past. i meant, does those bad points reside in me as well?
well, i dont think of those stuff for no special reason. special? no, not really perhaps, i just find that these 3 friends whom i've been out with last July have ALL drifted from me. you know, the thing is that the 3 of them still goes out tog, but they do not bother calling me along. not that it matters much now, but we were all, the 7 of us, a clique. this split is getting more and more sever. no, this is still not the point, i just get the feeling that they're colding me. not the other 3, but just that 3. it had been since during the trip. no, that iM not being paranoid about. its really the case. i dont wish to elaborate what happened or what made me feel so. its just that when your closer friends have these reactions to you, it gets you really anxious and sets you thinking more. and more and more, when i feel that iM already thinking too much.
hahaHahaA! - the laugh i needed. but save me please. free me from this troubled mind T.T
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin on
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
morning
its been a very long time since i've woken up so early.
Before the dawn breaks,
when the cold wind blows,
its as if the world is yours.
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Mind Over Stress!
my timetable have just changed for a third time in 3 days, and finally for the better. omG i cant believe it, i got the module Mind Over Stress. that was a change from an essay-based exam to this mcq-based exam. yippie! but i wasn't as lucky with the module Are You Ok?!, saw a vacancy but cldnt get it. it wld have shortened my longest day woR. XD now, my longest day is now monday :: 8.30pm. XD
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EID
haiyo poor guy, i wonder what has happened to him. maybe he really couldnt take it.
and i salute to her, she is strong to take what he threw to her..
i've heard his perception - grades and his people. yes, i understand you, but did you understand me? sigh..
也许遗憾和年轻 总綁在一起
不容许一点委屈 等放手才懂惋惜
静下心来发现过去大半是甜蜜 回忆
Engineering Innovation & Design
i have been very irritated by this event for these few days, the Engineering Innovation & Design project. Although the names vary from one engineering faculty in NTU to another, its basically holds the same notion : a 5 wks long intensive project that involves 12 person. and being in the streamed sections of mechanical engineering, the number proportions are 3 design + 4 mechatronics + 5 aerospace ( = 12 in total ) .
the problem comes not in forming the group, but people wanting to break up after the group has been formed. and this matter overlaps with my cca stuff, though i really cannot see the relation in the reasoning of that guy who wants to pull his aerospace group out. basically with the breakdown above, there are 3 sections of pple who form this group. and well, he believes that there is this one person in the group who has the wrong working attitude, and it might break the bond within the entire group.
lets see, what makes him think that joining another group will give him an upper hand. did he consider that the remaining of us might not work well with the replacement section he might find for us? and it is not as if he knows everyone in the remaining of the (original) group; who knows what type of pple there are as well.
it bothers me that he does not want to know the reason of what happened to that one person of whom is actually our common friend. from what i gather in our prev prev conversation before i got really fat-up, he just seems to care more of the dynamics of his section of people, of whom are people from his Club. well well, he doesnt want to be seen as a bad leader huh. isn't his working attitude wrong as well, to care only for his section of pple without putting in concern of whether the rest of us can work well with the replacement group if they leave. thanks ar.
this is my blog, i say what i feel. this thing was brought up 2 days ago, and i was more in the volcano state then to hear that this guy had this intention of breaking the group. my friend, my dear friend huh. now, after much thinking and pouring out to some others, iM typing in a much² calmer state. do understand that iM not putting you in a bad light, its just that sometimes, you dont seem to consider in all-rounded manner.
am i being obstinate in not seeing what you see, or are you the obstinate fellow who does not see what i argue for. or maybe maybe, things just has to be so.
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Stupid Mossies
i hate waiting for bus on rainy days, especially when the busstop is so empty, as i'll tend to be bitten by mossies. its irritating to be bitten by those digusting insects when one remains 'stagnant', and it is just as irritating to keep in constant movement just to minimize contact with those unavoidable thingyS. yucKs. I wonder exactly how many kisses had i accumulated in total in the 20 mins wait for bus, 7< ? countable ones are 2 on my left calve, 1 on my right calve, and 2 big ones on my thighs, one near my butt, and 1 one the back of my palm. =.= how did it get there? digusting! argH!!
was out to have dinner with my senior at can 1. its really good to catch up again after so long =) and its just as great to have dinner with a company! much better than having dinner alone in pathetic-ness. XD
but its terrible having to walk back all the way from the other end of the school back to hall all ALONE. tsK* and its worse to count it as the second time in the week that i've walked back alone. first time was when i was out to meet another senior at City Harvest coffee shop to have dinner and return some stuff. okay i admit i was stupid then; i alighted much earlier than i was supposed to, thinking that i could take a shuttle back to my hall. little was i smart enough to check the timing to realise that it is close to 9 pm and there might not be anymore shuttle service. and this time round, it was just around that same time again. i seriously believe the bus uncles had 'eaten' us of one round of bus service - There is supposed to be a last shuttle leaving the station at 9pm, but i dont see any buses on either of the 2 days since a wait at 8.45pm. 1 round on shuttle route A takes only 10 mins esply night time less pessengers. argH* okay iM complaining. but i hate walking back in the dark alone! soBs...
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
stupid network
argH* i have great trouble in trying to access any outside websites in my hall since last week. have been living virtually on NTU sites and Skype only. and my comp is running on super slow speed coZ of the removed RAM. i have to go to the library just to check my mailsS or to lament abit in this blog. what is the use of my laptop? terrible. puke blood. XD
recently some appalling thing has occured. i've talked briefly to a dude whom i've lost contact with for more than half a year. its amazing that i was being appoached by this dude to catch a small talk! i thought ... (nah, iM not going to continue :o)
and i met up with a 't-on' dude to catch up over a meal, of whom i've lost contact with for more than 1 year! XD omG my dear friends, am i losing out on you all? x.x
Monday, January 15, 2007
i am maamemoo
brRrr* i am so cold. and the fan is on full blast! but she is wrapped like some swiss roll. and yet she can previously still say that it (she only) is not cold at all. save me from her logics! argH!
cold aside, my point in blogging now is to prepare myself to open myself up abit more. yes, the very first noticible effort will be for me to open my blog. oOoo~ there will definitely be more constraints to what i'll be typing, but hopefully, it will be offset by my effort in opening it up. please give me support yea. (everyone say : "Yeah Yeah Yeah!" ) =p
and so ... i am maamemoo...
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Xuan's Birthday Celebration
just came back from a friend's birthday 21st celebration today. it is interesting how we have only got to know each other in work place when we were from the JC.. >.<
however, only 3 of us were invited, of which only me and the other girl had turned up. so imagine how 2 pathetic birds survived in a flock of unknown faces. XD the birthday girL really had no time for us 2 pathetic birds, so luckily we had the company of each other.
before the 'party' ends, i had come to know this Y1 Mechanical student who is also from NTU. well though we talked abit, i had forgotten his name less than 1 minute into the conversation. and i had unwittingly overheard a female friend of his saying that we might be 'talking some mathetical formula' and laughters out of the rest shortly after saying it. openly shot her/them an eye and asked 'what?!'.
its really irritating how people typecast engineers to be so 'dead' and mundane. hello, please don't think your course is all so great ok. if you wanna joke, make sure it does not get to the ears of the person(s) who is/are made fun of especially when the person do not know you at all. tsK* irritating.
Friday, January 12, 2007
卖火柴的小女孩
give me some warmth
set me a fireplace
someone is seeking some warmth
will you provide?
卖火柴的小女孩
DaeR RoamtomE
aww, such a nice weather to sleep in.. had a nice 11 hours of sleep. but bad thing, nightmare. i dreamt that i was abandon by some friends. well they did leave me abit of shadow, but never did i think that i would have dreamt about them so suddenly.
yesterday before i went out to meet my friend, i had a small squabble with my roomie. such a small thing, yet she kept insisting stuff that she brings across. it just seems (to me) that she just don't listen in to the other point iM trying to point out. some things just gotta happen that way?
me : (am killing mosquitoes)
she : oh yar girl, please dont kill mosquitoes at night.
me : huh? but i thought u listen to mp3 when u sleep?
she : yes but i can still hear you leh.
me : am i supposed to let it fly around and bite me? i've only clapped at the mosquitoes thrice.
...
she : the mosquitoes must have come because of you.
me : huh? what rubbish, its the raining season now again.
she : but there was no prob when (prev occupant) was around..
me : excuse me, its NOT the raining season then.
she : no lor, mosquitoes dont breed during the raining season.
me : err, they dont breed, but insects seek warmth when it rains, and your (damn) door is so wide open, they will come in.
... (she continues to argue as if iM wrong in her-perception of my-so-called-rubbish)
me : hello, i didnt complain that your (stupid) noise wake me up in the early mornings. like you can minimize your stirring of cup to do without/with-less of the clings and clangs.
she : how can u stir without hitting the sides?
me : you could have made a more conscious effort to stir with more care.
she : that's why i stir faster!
me : (=.= thats why its more noisy! argh)
...
help please save me. i didnt want to start this squabble. i was just killing a mosquito! argH* like as if she doesnt disturb me with her noise as well. she doesn't understand that this is the point iM trying to point out! iM NOT trying to argue! ARGH!
sometimes when these above cases arises, when i seem to have prob with friends, i will be thinking if its my people-relation prob. haiX. please tell me if you have something up with me okix. you wont be placed in a bad spot. i might try to explain, or accept whatever is told to me; i know i know some negatives points about myself. haiX. badbad time with my 'daer roamtome'. argH*
thats why, its really heart-warming that friends will suddenly message you to ask how you are. without any ulterior motives, without any favours to ask from you. just a simple greeting. thanks!
Thursday, January 11, 2007
the Virtual World...
aAar* i can finally post on blogger. argh. recentLy, everytime has been down for me, and down as in spoilt. my lappy, my hotmail, my yahoo mail, my club mail, blogger. furthermore, the internet is so very slow. enough! what grudge does the virtual world has with me? iM so lost in touch with it except for STARS add/drop of subject =.=
weather has turned back cold. hasn't the rain fallen enough in the December holidays? went out just now when it was still a small drizzle. its really lucky that i've brought my umbrella along though, else i would have been drenched like a pathetic chicken when i make my way back >.<
yeP, was out to meet my jC friend to have dinner and pass him his birthday present. 21st woR. haiX. this year is going to be a very broke year for me. but well, since its a guy, i still get a dinner treat! wuhoo! there seems to be something with guys that they show their gentlemen-lity by treating. okay lah, girLs benefit, but guys tend to loose out on this. yes, a treat is definitely a pleasant move, but it is not always necessary.
okay but talking so much, i did enjoy the dinner alot. its good to catch up with someone after so very long, to laugh at one another =)
yes that is me, to catch up with my dear friends individually. so please do not take it too hard if you find that i've met up a friend without calling you up.
another 21's celebration coming up on Saturday.
another hole in the pocket!
argH!!
Saturday, January 6, 2007
majong!
What an interesting day!
Had just came back from majong with some of my Club members. Ahh, its so cold tonight. its really fortunate that my roomie is not back yet, and that i can switch the fan to a bare minimum speed.
Yep, had meeting before that. Long and draggy as usual. But luckily, there is majong to perk me up! really had a fun time playing. and it is also today that i've learnt to play a 2 person majong. won myself a dinner even though it is not really what i wanted to have for a meal. >.<
aww talking about food, iM hungry. Dinner and the cup noodles just now is really not very satisfying. pig me huh. loL~
Thursday, January 4, 2007
习惯成“瘾”
因为我那习惯性的左传，所以在上到宿舍房间的途中，得一直提醒自己该是转右了。
习惯真令人烦躁。等到该改变的时候，才赫然发现自己已经染上了某些“瘾”。那时就真的糟糕了……
Subject Registration
irritating shit! $%#*@&^ ! i had to call dunno how many lines just to ask 1 simple question. in the end. the website says to "consult your academic counsellor or registration coordinator on currlculum & registration matters, if necessary", yeah so i picked up the phone and called MY school's "Counsellors" for "Help on Academic Matters".
okay, the first call is good. very helpful, given me 2 numbers to call, and even helped by trying to divert my call to one of the numbers. it was a drop call as no one picked up the line. though i managed to call through the other line, but the people are getting less and less friendly. in total, i got redirected (to call the 'relevant party' myself) 4 times. 4 times for a simple question!!
" As a MAE Y2 student, am i allowed to take ***** module if it says it is 'not availabe to ...MPE'? however, the code does not seem to be updated, may i know if your system will allow for my registration and not to make it become redundant instead. furthermore, i have a fren who took a module that is supposedly 'not allowed' to her. so does you system allow for my registration? "
$%#*@&^. long as it may seem, but iM just explaining my question. ultimately, only the last sentence is the impt key thing to answer. and yet i have to explain like one zillion times my question. from MAE, to being HSS, to another department of HSS, and finally to OAS.
firstly, their line sucks. their reception is as bad as can be. the lady even suggested to call me back coZ that line is faulty. hello, my registration is in 10 mins from then?
secondly, they are so uninformed. the lady who attended to my call said this isnt their premise, and wanted to get me to call up the 'relevant school'. excuse me, i was told to call from there? argH* later that, she had to keep referring to another lady upon my questions. (and hey, my 'questions' are just the repetition of the same thing) =.=
thirdly, they are so unfriendly! that lady who seemed so unexperienced finally passed the phone over to another older lady to answer my call, and she kept on repeating the same things that are not answering directly to my qn. she gave me that 'bu nai fan' tone, and i got so pissed that i said that i had to attitude her. hello? my registration has started and you're still not answering to my question?! what sort of consulting service is that?
argH* sux man. in the end, i had to ask them in a direct until cannot direct manner. like die die yes or no question. and yucKs, iM still not sure abt my question after all that still! but after all, i did not register for it. dont wanna gamble my choices away. tsK* stupid system! grRrr*
Wednesday, January 3, 2007
Fly Away ~
“我知道啊！你这个笨蛋！死蠢蛋…王八蛋…你到底知不知道我喜欢你啊？我每天都来找你，你以为我时间多啊？！猪头！”
typical taiwan speech. but, its aww so sweet. a damn long KTV, and with all those cling-ing and clang-ing of stuff, its prolly not worth it to spend 6.5mins on a song in K-ing. but a very worthwhile MTV that always manages to touch me.
still remember some long time back, had accompanied ta all the way to east area to "cut" her EP. yup, and she chose to sing this difficult song, but it was really well brought out. i wonder which corner of her house did she chuck it to. loL~
“是什么样的音乐，可以让一个人，听得这么感动？”prolly a song that sings out your heart..?
Tuesday, January 2, 2007
the 2nd day of 2007
the 2nd day of 2007. the sun is shining and the weather is good. but iM couped at home. >.<
recalling the events from the eve to new year's day, i had a remarkably altogether different experience as from all of the past years. by 4.30pm of the eve, i've finally decided to go with my uni friends to count down, and whilst i had only set off at 4.45pm considering that our meeting time is 5pm, i was still the earliest to reach city hall =.= how wonderful can we all be sia.
altogether there were 6 of us present for dinner at the foodcenter beside the DSO, soph miao zhenyi me and the pair of lovebirdy cCni. thickskin as we all can be, we happily sat there for more than 2 hours slowly enjoying our shared dinner whilst dozens and dozens of 'vultures' were all around preying for empty seats. from 3 joint tables for the 6 of us, we had to reduce to just squeezing to 1 table. haehehe! not too bad, just enough space for us all.
after much debate, we decided to go some coffee place and slouch at their couches till the other 2 pairs of lovebirds come. wohoo~ though we had only slacked there doing nothing much other than chatting and reading fairy tales (yeah, from story books found in the cafe), it was of much fun and laughter for the entire time.
just too bad that it had drizzled for quite some time that night. though we had manage to seek shelter just in time, but the drizzle had prevented us from venturing much further to a nicer spot to view the fireworks. well good for me still, coz eventually after setlling on Shear's Bridge (along Esplanade drive?), i've spotted my hubbers clique. great! else i really wouldn't know how possible in heaven's name can i meet up with them in that messy crowd after count down.
yes, coZ they'll be coming to my house after count down. party after party :) less than 1 minute after count down, i've shaked all the hands of my uni group of frens (formality? loL~) and left with the hubbers. xRu saM wanL & kaiY. woot! majong majong. but it took close to 2 hours for us to reach back my house. good gathering. laughing and all =)
the fireworks was good, but not as nice as those i had seen from clark quay and esplanade on nationday06, and the count down 0506. yeP, was with the Hope people for the last countdown at the bushes along Kallang River and facing the esplanade area to watch the fireworks. other than having been blocked by some of the lower (and fatteR) buildings, the view was fabulous. with water in front of you, you seem to have the entire sky filled with fireworks to yourself. having our own space was still much better than being squeezed in an overcrowded bridge. oh and surprisingly amongst the crowd, i saw the Hope people this year as well, with Tim leading them all this time round. oOooh.
Happy new year:-)
Monday, January 1, 2007
happy new year 2007!
Happy new year:-)
had a wonderful night out. however, celebration is over, and its time for sleep now. before i sleep, let me blog a little as to my new year resolutions.
i want to ...
be more optimistic and positive looking
be less conservative, and open myself more towards others
ie. accept people's goodness more readily
find a clearer direction in life.
i've got my good wishes =)
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