have not had much time to laze ard (except today) for the past few days.

so after that fateful piece of lettuce that tortured me for the entire night, i've finally gotten abt to install MSN on my lappy. yep, virutal life is on its way bacK~ =) i've decided to myself to be proactive in chatting and (try) not to wait for pple to click on me. hahaha! (oh yeah?)

went out with chenny on fri (even tho she still have 1 more paper) she introduced a nice turkish restaurant at Far East (yummy but spicy!) and we tried so many nice clothes that it got her so tempted to buy. its really v v nice, but hey, it cost a whopping 138 for a piece of dress wor. hahaha! i wont even dream of getting it with the financial situation iM in now (and u as well girL) .

slept early that night (say 12am?) coz was really drousy, and had a real bad dream. dreamt of my friends dying. argh* so scary. i think i spent too much energy in my dreams in worrying. one friend said before, that dreams are often the opposite of reality. hmm, maybe they'll struck rich? >.<

woke up ard noon time for a swim (ahh, first in 1 year? oOops) and met a friend for lunch. at least this friend is intact and in 1 piece. haix. dreams are sometimes so real /..\ spent the rest of the afternoon packing my hostel room to move out that night.

was waiting for pizza to come and watching the ch8 wkend show in the TV Lounge while waiting for my mum and cousin to come. and omG, it was damn paiseh lah. after settling for some time, these 3 pple whom i somewhat knew asked if i was watching the show. and after i said yes, the whole bunch of pple, including pple behind me, left the lounge (for other lounges). it was like half emptied just because i, 1 person, am watching that show. ahh. where can i hide myself. so, in the commercial breaks, i went to ju's room, and she had just gotten the news abt me. hahaha. omg. and by the time we went back down (that's just like 2 mins), the whole tv lounge is flooded with pple, the channel has been changed to sports-soccer, and pizza had already came. heheheh! and i saw those same pple i had unwittingly chased away. ahhh! XD damn paiseh lah!

after that episode and a well stuffed pizza dinner, moving of my barangs down from the 5th floor seemed like a tremendous chore. hence, had a v long and only slighty dreamy sleep that night (from 1am to 3pm). pig right. hahaha! and tho its 1.55am now, and i've been feeling tired since some 3 hrs ago, i've finally decided to turn-in. ah. gotta wake up at 10.30am tmL. will that be possible feat? >.<

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...that bus out of NTU.

yay! it spelt the end of my last paper of this academic year! woosh* let me recall. the MP2011 drawing and calcu paper was rather tricky at the drawing segment, the Fluids paper was my most confident paper before and after taking it, i had SU-ed Mind Over Stress (hope its not a stupid choice) and hence sashayed my way out of Nayang Audi even though i didnt complete the paper (15 mins before times up -_-), and kinematics was tricky and i hadnt had time to finish, last of my examinable 4 core modules is Maths4 (today) as my killer paper which i just hope i can get my B (or worse C+ please) T.T, and and last of all is crisis stress! ahh! i had to stay till the end to finish coZ i cldnt do cldnt think TT.TT

and off to JP with ju! wohoo! edible MOS was great although i had been rather uncareful to swallow a piece of lettuce w/o biting (ouch, it did hurt my throat for quite some time, but i remained silent coZ too pai seh already >.< ) and i still feel it now! argh* i have no idea what is wrong with me recently. have been swallowing alot of unswallowables. like fish bone (ouch!) and seeds. haiX. that is damn sad lah.

so that's it, its just eating, talking and then we came back hall. but it was quite alot that i've learnt. well, my life is so boring compared to so many others. the types of people whom i meet are so few, and i really feel like i've not experienced life. life life, where are you? seek thoust faithful servant! heez.

yep though exams have ended, i'll be staying in hall till sun unless i get to find pple to go out with =)

and oh yeah! k boX! =D woot!

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ahh. over 200 views in my blog in 1 and a half months. ehh, but that counts in about 10 of myself as well >.< but hey! that's a job well done loh. pats to myself. *blushes*

however, that's nothing compared to this blog my friend has done for his church. i guess if one were to wander in, u'll know for yourself which church this is, to be able to achieve 570+ views in just 1 week. and that count has a majority from the NTU cluster only. woah.

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Oneism - Process of systemically recurrent determination as to proportional significance of individual aspects or the individuality of group distinction in relation to the collective whole in conjunction with the amount of environmental restrictions placed upon various individual aspects or the individuality of group distinction to produce variability with its unpredictability within a sub-system or sub-dimension of Nature's multi-dimensional totality; such a process seemingly occurs amid the interplay between the individual aspect or the individuality of group distinction and the collective whole of which apparently attempts to regulate a dynamically supple coexistence pertaining to all; this overall process appears systemically related to the structural continuance of Nature's totality, as well as the individually diversified living and nonliving aspects within the systemic web of Nature's dynamically fluid multi-dimensional totality as a whole system.

- Keith Alan Hamilton

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okay i know iM online for too long. sigh. i just dont feel like doing maths. its getting me really depressed with all the question marks and big circles iM drawing on the paper. sigh.

so does anyone wanna go out on thurs night / fri / sat ? hehehe! my paper ends on fri, and will be in hall till sun when i start to pack out of my hostel room. XD anddd of course, i do not wish to be coped in my hall when my examination has ended! hello anyone free? =p my not-yet-schooling friends, come on accompany me! (there's only u 2 u know) loL~ anyone else? heez. come on i'll be soo bored! x.x

check this out. it looks so yummy. i wonder if its edible (because this person does real baking as well) . loL~

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Within my delusion lives love beyond known imagination. Blinded by the majesty of it all reality had slipped far away. Forging on, although comprehension gone dreams were created. Rude the awakening, suddenly expectation quickly dissolved. In fallacy ignorance reigns, perhaps an illusion can't love me.

- Keith Alan Hamilton

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exams = crisis. and iM in a crisis state!

ROAR! 4 down, 2 more 2 go.

exams is just so stressful. what a crisis state iM in now.. i claim that i'll be studying after i come back from dinner, but... ..

well, some things just do not happen the way you expect it to be.. maybe I do not have a strong wanting for it (argh, who Wants to study?. we just Need to. >.< ) or maybe its because of the influence from... chenny!

ahahaha! okay iM just kidding. Its just me feeling quite nua. /..\ weather has been really bad since some 2 weeks ago; blasting hot sun in the noon time, and pouring almost every afternoon. i think the weather here just lacks abit of typhoon and some icicles. hahaha! once in school, my interesting friend said that she thought she saw some tinny puinny icicle 'flowers' (雪花) falling. loLx~

Crisis : An event or situation encountered or perceived by a person causing subjective distress that exceeds the coping resources of that individual.

Crisis State : A state provoked when a person faces an obstacle to important life goals, that is, a time insurmountable to the utilisation of customary methods of problem solving, a period of disorganisation ensures, a period of upset during which important attempts and solutions are made. Eventually some kind of adaptation is achieved which may or may not be in the best interests of the person and his fellows.

those 2 terms are referring to 2 different ideas wor. one is a situation whereas the other is more of a personal state. was introduced this in my Psycho of Crisis Stress Managem elective, the first module of its kind offered in Singapore. And our interesting lecturer really sets himself apart from all the things he has to say in the module, and even showed us the paper for this coming exam. well, he said he'll show us, so he waved it infront of the lecture. -_-" so wonderful right. and even moreso, he uploaded that paper! ahhh! as if we can be so excited about that. nah, its just a dummy paper with the exact qns but keywords replaced by all those fffffff and tttttt blabla. loLx. whats the point nia. butbut, the thing is that he did what other tutors do not do! hahahaha! XD is uploading a dummy against the school rule ? >.<

"In a critical incident, the organisation dddddddd ttttttt llllllll rrrrrrrrrrr to vvvvvvvv the aaaaaaaaa will nnnn lllllllll for the ssssssss. "

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「可爱」的朋友，你最近多好了…？

其实你也挺可怜的嘛…

整天见你只为感情的事烦恼…

开口说爱一个她，闭口又爱上了另一个她，
你的心也不知分给了几个人啊…

原来你的爱是那么的伟大。

你每一次都死心塌地的对那个某某说爱，
能为她做的是你说也说不完咯…

称天称地样样都把她称一。

你会把这一切都放的很明目，我们都看到，
这又为了什么，有何事可证呀…

啊，真是让人嫉妒的柔爱。

但怎么在后来的后来，显得绝情的总是你，
你也怎总是不会伤心得太久呢…

让旁观者懊恼是你擅长的。

而伤心又是什么东西，你了解的多深呢？
那两个字只是你嘴上的兵器吗…

说，冰花水悦。做，一事无成。

也无论你把你的心分给了多少个过路人，
她们总会为你填补更大的一份。

你是否听到她们给你的祝福了？

追求了一生，却还是盲目无目标的乱撞，
怎么我会有位如此可悲的朋友…

坚强的背后是否隐藏着脆弱？

你的身前又有何事是真的哪，
你的身后又掩盖了多少丑事？

「可爱」的朋友，你最近多好了…？

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omg this is damn funny

people, if you wanna distress, you can try browsing about this funny section of this webpage.

to myself : yes! 加油加油！ one down and 5 more papers to go (3 days 5 papers!). i hope i didnt fare too badly for today's paper >.<

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Today might have been Friday the 13th, but it was really an enjoyable day to me. had really been a long long time since I've gone to Central areas and really chill and relax.

the day started with me successfully waking up at 8.30am despite sleeping around 2.30am. however, didnt accomplished much studying. lazed around my hostel in the morning till around noon time before going to lunch and lecture. can you believe it, i still had lessons even till today, and the last lecture just ended ystd evening for the paper that we'll be sitting for on the coming tues. hello, how much time is there for us. haiX.

yep so after school, studied abit and went out to celebrate a fren's bday with this gang of idea-ful people. they're really a fun bunch with all sorts of funny stunts popping up every now and then. so really laughed a whole lot tonight, and came home really full just as every time coz they really eat aloTT (dinner + dessert).

iM very satisfied now, and though reall really tired, i guess i should start serious studying for today. yawnz.

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清明

iM 3 days late of the Qing Ming Festival, but upon seeing this poem from my friend's blog, i still would like to post it here.

清明时节雨纷纷，
路上行人欲断魂；
借问酒家何处有，
牧童遥指杏花村。

some small education for kids out there, that 清明 lies on the 二月十八日 of the lunar calendar. yep, nothing much to add. study time. XD i've been online for too long XD

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and perhaps as we grow older, we tend to forget the 'festives' that we had once enjoyed in its celebration.

Happy April Fools' !

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大风吹 - Andy 许志安

但这天换了真大炮
那同伴不肯言和
为何人人大了
无人来提示我想玩什么

当天只有六岁
因此你共我　爱共谁游玩　不必想太多
看现在她不跟我玩了
我太闷还是波子不够多

我看着大风吹
你在哪里
困于这变大身躯里
得我在风中一个面对

继续大风吹讯号失去
那些公园里的嬉戏伴侣
逐个回去一一离队
此际我世界尚有谁

有亦太无趣

the crowd of friends around you will generally change in different stages of life. people tend to mix more with the people they see and, hence, interact more on a daily basis. mixing more doesnt mean that your friendship with them is closer than all others. in contrast, not meeting with old friends does not mean that they have been forgotten. its probably just that both parties are too busy with their own lives, with their own friends, as i would choose to believe.

but recently, i've found out that the relationship i had with this (few?) friend is different. i am not contacted not because we are too busy. i have no idea what is the problem. if this friend finds problem in my attitude, then I will also find that there is problem in this friend having that attitude.

our friendship is falling apart. even if we do bumb into each other (as we did some 1 or 2 times), this friend will colden whatever i say, with this irritable tone that seemed as if i am someone not worth talking, or even say hi to. not even when i said good luck when this friend had an event to run. and i get a "what?!" in return. yes, thanks my friend. still, i scrubbed it off as some tiredness in the task this friend was doing. still i maintained the sms contact. still my friend. together with the others, we had a wonderful past. why now?

and with this friend's big birthday celeb coming, i was so not invited. no, i was not told. hi my friend, why did i have to hear from some else? and why then, is the rest of our clique invited? i admit that if i was who i were in the past, i would have been terribly upset by this, and ponder and ponder and ponder over this. well, i still am upset, i still want to know why, but i shall not let it affect me. i shall not let this affect our friendship. perhaps, just perhaps, it slipped your mind. it is not that we had drifted, it is not that you see some faults in me, it is not that you want this friendship to drift apart. well maybe i am just not as close to you as others. perhaps, just perhaps, i always spot you at the wrong timings. right, my friend? do i owe you any explanation? or maybe you owe me some as well?

so now, where are you my friend?

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