但这天换了真大炮
那同伴不肯言和
为何人人大了
无人来提示我想玩什么
当天只有六岁
因此你共我 爱共谁游玩 不必想太多
看现在她不跟我玩了
我太闷还是波子不够多
我看着大风吹
你在哪里
困于这变大身躯里
得我在风中一个面对
继续大风吹讯号失去
那些公园里的嬉戏伴侣
逐个回去一一离队
此际我世界尚有谁
有亦太无趣
the crowd of friends around you will generally change in different stages of life. people tend to mix more with the people they see and, hence, interact more on a daily basis. mixing more doesnt mean that your friendship with them is closer than all others. in contrast, not meeting with old friends does not mean that they have been forgotten. its probably just that both parties are too busy with their own lives, with their own friends, as i would choose to believe.
but recently, i've found out that the relationship i had with this (few?) friend is different. i am not contacted not because we are too busy. i have no idea what is the problem. if this friend finds problem in my attitude, then I will also find that there is problem in this friend having that attitude.
our friendship is falling apart. even if we do bumb into each other (as we did some 1 or 2 times), this friend will colden whatever i say, with this irritable tone that seemed as if i am someone not worth talking, or even say hi to. not even when i said good luck when this friend had an event to run. and i get a "what?!" in return. yes, thanks my friend. still, i scrubbed it off as some tiredness in the task this friend was doing. still i maintained the sms contact. still my friend. together with the others, we had a wonderful past. why now?
and with this friend's big birthday celeb coming, i was so not invited. no, i was not told. hi my friend, why did i have to hear from some else? and why then, is the rest of our clique invited? i admit that if i was who i were in the past, i would have been terribly upset by this, and ponder and ponder and ponder over this. well, i still am upset, i still want to know why, but i shall not let it affect me. i shall not let this affect our friendship. perhaps, just perhaps, it slipped your mind. it is not that we had drifted, it is not that you see some faults in me, it is not that you want this friendship to drift apart. well maybe i am just not as close to you as others. perhaps, just perhaps, i always spot you at the wrong timings. right, my friend? do i owe you any explanation? or maybe you owe me some as well?
so now, where are you my friend?
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