谢谢 :)

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I am really pissed. just the 2nd day back from the camp and I've already that so many things have fallen apart.

Committee. oh please, what is going on. this section has only 4 person including me, and there can still be a break down in communication. In the 10 days that I was away, i received no updates even tho i had explicitly stated that I will have NO internet access and sms is too slow a form of communication. no one updated me that an excutive summary + budget is supposed to be in by 15th. no one bothered to explore into other ideas after the first had been rejected. thanks alot. although things have gotten back to path now, work delegated once again, but I just had to say that the team is soOoo efficient. I'm really sorry if anyone within the comm has to hear this. Prolly I'm just too worked up that people always tend to procrastinate work. haix.

School. yeah, I'm indirectly threatened by the course 'mistress' on the course site that i might be de-registered as I had missed the first week of inter-semester lessons. argh. iM so damn worried lah. dugged her email her and sent her an email to seek 'repentence and forgiveness'. hahaha! ok, but basically what i asked for is to Not be removed from the course. brRrr* scared.

Family. ok, just had to add something else the 2 points above doesnt seem to justify the word "many" that I had mentioned in the very first para. my poor wanG² vormitted thrice today, and vormitted the day before as well. poor thing. he barely had Any food the whole of today.

Camp. ok, there are too many things to mention about. not only do i have disappointment at some of the people in the camp (i emphasize some, not 1, so its not huat u might be thinking) , I am even more disappointed at myself. I probably did not mention, but these 2 camps affected me alot.

but one cheerful thing that happened on the last of the 10 days was that as a participant dropped by to find me as she collected some other stuff. Her mum was with her, and she said that her girl was so much more energized after seeing me. it made it even more meaningful to me coZ she's not my kid. that small effort of appreciation really touched me alot, judging that I had but could not tear for TTP even tho my kids were basically out of control. okay, that's not the point. but right back to reality after that hugging and quick talk, I really felt really discouraged by the end results of the 2nd batch of kids. haiX.

i'm really tired. i shld have slpt 3 hrs ago, but settling all those stuff made me really wanna blog tonight. pearL ah, sorry i still haven reply ur email. we meet up some time after ur working hours k..? >.<

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afterall, a photographer will always live up to his name. The cake is just as delicious as it looks =) met up with my junior college classmates ystd.. was rather disappointed that only 2/3 of those who promised to come did manage to turn up. oh well, i did my best /..\

as i was clearing my phone of rubbish messages just moments ago, I came across all those messages and pictures that I had since some time ago.. 喜唰唰! so many memories. so many people whom i miss. where have you all gone to?!

iM quite tired, considering that i had to be in school by 8am this morning (apart from the side point that i was still alittle late), and i will have to be up by 5.30am tml morning, i should be in bed an hour ago. but but, iM still preparing for the 10 days of SK. rawr! no accomodation and strict laws. aww. can i buy time to sleep? >.<

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S.K. 1 . 2007

the 2nd day break from camp. whew, its been so long since iM that shag out. but surprisingly, my dark circles have not grown to be too bad considering that i had barely 6 hrs of sleep per day >.<>

the coaches there really are great people and i had formed quite some friendships there. their trademark is to show appreciation and the hugging of people, which made me felt really warm and welcomed. but but, just at the last day, i received feedbacks that i am really damn quiet on the first day (and prolly still alittle on the 2nd). hey, i've gotta justify that iM the type of person who likes to observe new environments instead of plunging right down and risking chances of using the wrong/undesired coaching methods. oh well, the PD also mentioned that they ( i wonder who's involved ) were to try all methods to get me to open up. oh. and that immediately got me to wonder if the warmness i felt from those experienced coaches are not really sincere friendship. you can say that it bothers me quite abit, coZ i will need to reassess myself on whether i seem weak to others or what-so-ever.

as pointed out, it is definite that we new coaches from NTU and SMU are pressured to perform. come on, coaches there can be as young as 14 -16 years old, and they are performing well, so shouldn't us, as elder kids than them, perform at least just as well? at least we still lie within the children/teenagers/young_adults' age catergory and know how to deal with kids. but should parents with children know just as well, if not better? then how come the new adult coaches do not feel as welcoming as the teen coaches? well at least i sense that adult dictatorialship on me. like for example, although this chap had the experience of a camp as a participant before this, we are both new coaches. but during activities, this chap (and some other adult chaps) have this : 'oh what u did is wrong' thing abt me. yeah yeah, i admit my mistake and am v willing to change IF i am wrong. and adults, in correcting others, please do not make the same mistake yourself just within seconds of correcting others. and what more absurd is that upon clarification with the PD, i realised that iM NoT wrong. grown adult with kids. typical. and what i realised about this group of older new-coaches is that they like to label things as theirs that we cannot touch them. sigh.

it does seem that i observe coaches more than the kids. well of course, kids are more innocent. they dont need much cracking to enter in, you just need to have the right set of skills to interact and play around with them to get them to open up. it justifies that i need to observe adults more as i need to learn coaching skills and techniques from them. which also explains that if i were to write review for coaches instead of the children in the camp, i will be able to write more readily. oOops >.<

in a nutshell, the experience is really worth it and i definitely do not regret going for it. i strive to improve much much more in the next camp, and i really hope that i wont die from the next 2 consecutive camps iM taking. oh shit, how come i have a bad feeling that it will be extremely exhausting. XD

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That's What Friends Are For - Dionne Warwick & Friends

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say "That I do believe I love you"
And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today and then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you
And then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Ohh, That's what friends are for

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the Adam Khoo Leadership Training Group

do i love kids? i've worked at a childcare centre, and i know how kids can be so adorable yet on your nerves when they misbehave at times. those innocent little fellows will come hugging you very soon after being scolded by the same you, forgetting bad memories as soon as the event is over. aww, such innocence.

that's one of the reasons why i had signed up for the coming camp instructor course. despite being paid for it (if you are selected, that is), one of the other pulling factor is the children. imagine working with children around you. and of course, the nature. what a wonderful change will that be, compared to working in the office with all those black faces to tackle and the demanding work scope to deal with.

well, who says that working with children is not demanding? they definitely have alot of requests for you. aww, isnt there always the saying that children gives you trouble because they want your attention? yep, love is the answer for most of the questions. the thing that can solve the problems in what the adults-environment cant do much. oh, that's apart from those boss-subordinate LovE though. >.<>

thus, i really hoped that i'll be able to get that task as a camp facilator. a job it might be, but a holiday gateway as well. =)

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