S.K. 1 . 2007

By: moOo on Saturday, June 2, 2007 12:30 AM

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the 2nd day break from camp. whew, its been so long since iM that shag out. but surprisingly, my dark circles have not grown to be too bad considering that i had barely 6 hrs of sleep per day >.<>

the coaches there really are great people and i had formed quite some friendships there. their trademark is to show appreciation and the hugging of people, which made me felt really warm and welcomed. but but, just at the last day, i received feedbacks that i am really damn quiet on the first day (and prolly still alittle on the 2nd). hey, i've gotta justify that iM the type of person who likes to observe new environments instead of plunging right down and risking chances of using the wrong/undesired coaching methods. oh well, the PD also mentioned that they ( i wonder who's involved ) were to try all methods to get me to open up. oh. and that immediately got me to wonder if the warmness i felt from those experienced coaches are not really sincere friendship. you can say that it bothers me quite abit, coZ i will need to reassess myself on whether i seem weak to others or what-so-ever.

as pointed out, it is definite that we new coaches from NTU and SMU are pressured to perform. come on, coaches there can be as young as 14 -16 years old, and they are performing well, so shouldn't us, as elder kids than them, perform at least just as well? at least we still lie within the children/teenagers/young_adults' age catergory and know how to deal with kids. but should parents with children know just as well, if not better? then how come the new adult coaches do not feel as welcoming as the teen coaches? well at least i sense that adult dictatorialship on me. like for example, although this chap had the experience of a camp as a participant before this, we are both new coaches. but during activities, this chap (and some other adult chaps) have this : 'oh what u did is wrong' thing abt me. yeah yeah, i admit my mistake and am v willing to change IF i am wrong. and adults, in correcting others, please do not make the same mistake yourself just within seconds of correcting others. and what more absurd is that upon clarification with the PD, i realised that iM NoT wrong. grown adult with kids. typical. and what i realised about this group of older new-coaches is that they like to label things as theirs that we cannot touch them. sigh.

it does seem that i observe coaches more than the kids. well of course, kids are more innocent. they dont need much cracking to enter in, you just need to have the right set of skills to interact and play around with them to get them to open up. it justifies that i need to observe adults more as i need to learn coaching skills and techniques from them. which also explains that if i were to write review for coaches instead of the children in the camp, i will be able to write more readily. oOops >.<

in a nutshell, the experience is really worth it and i definitely do not regret going for it. i strive to improve much much more in the next camp, and i really hope that i wont die from the next 2 consecutive camps iM taking. oh shit, how come i have a bad feeling that it will be extremely exhausting. XD